Cozy Is Dying, I must have my dog put to sleep Options

[Doximom]

I am very touched by the stories and sensitive responses on the site. My miniature doxie, Cozy, lies in her bed beside me now. The only thing that remains a constant with her now is here desire to stay close by me. Her poor tummy is swollen due to complications of congestive heart failure. Last night's trip to the vet was hopeful in that the vet increased the diuretics to the most advisable and I thought she could rally. She refuses almost all food now and I only managed to get her pills down with some deli meat. Over the last few days she would eat something for awhile and then refuse it. I cannot let her go on like this but my heart is breaking over what I must do. I have been a widow for ten years and my two little dogs have seen me through some bad times. They are my only housemates and I love them so dearly. Please say a prayer that I can have the strength to do what I have to do. Thank you for hearing me out, Cozy's mom.

[moon_beam]

Hi, Doximom, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. How so very sweet that your nephew sent you flowers. I do so understand how you're feeling when you share with us: "The days - and even parts of days- are swinging from the beginnings of acceptance to deep grief to terrible loneliness and back again." I don't think we ever "accept" the physical loss of our beloved companions. Through my life's experiences I have come to the realization that this grief journey is more of "adjustment" to their physical absence rather than "acceptance."

When our companions are physically with us, they literally become the center of our universe. We live in a physically oriented world governed by the five senses of taste, touch, sight, sound, and smell. Every time our companions touch us, rub against us, lick / kiss us, they are literally chemically imprinting themselves onto us so that they can identify us out of all the other milions of people on this planet. When they precede us to the angels, we literally go through a withdrawal from this physical contact, and it is both emotionally and physically painful. So please let me try to reassure you that what you are going through is very normal deep grief - - painful both emotionally and physically, yes - - still very normal. This is among many reasons why this grief journey is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride, and why it is a journey that can only be traveled one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time, in your own way and in your own time - - with the confidence of knowing that you are never alone - - that you have the comfort, support, and encouragement from everyone on this wonderful forum.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Doximom, and that you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Cozy's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam