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[Bayleigh's Mummy]

I lost my baby on monday 14th of january 2013, It was awful circumstances, i was told she had kennel cough, a month before she died, i paid out money to treat her with aintibiotics and advocat, she was ok but the week before she died she went downhill, she stopped wanting to go out or eat and was constantly coughing so i carried her to the vets on the monday she was given three injections and i got sent to the main vets to have her chest x-rayed, i had to leave her there and wait for them to call which was heart breaking, then at half 1 i got a call from the vets to say she had tumours all over her left lung which were squashing her windpipe making it difficult for her to breath, and there was and there was nothing that could be done and she died in my arms from euthanasia 4 hours later, i am truly heartbroken, she was everything to me my whole world infact and it was always just me, her and the cat, now its just me and the cat who is also finding this very difficult, i honestly thought my dog had kennel cough not lung cancer and i feel awful that because the vet thought this too, my poor dog on all three occasions (one of which was for over an hour) was made to wait outside with me in the cold, for the vet to see her incase she gave her kennel cough to another dog. I am just completely lost and to make matters worse it hasn't even been two weeks since i lost her and my mum is already telling me that she understands but i should try to move on and stop writing how im feeling on my posts on facebook incase people get sick of me talking about it, im trying so hard to get on with my life and stop being depressed i even tried talking about my sadness yesterday to my mum and she just changed the subject like she was pissed off me talking about it, I just decided bottling it up really doesn't help i just sink further into depression so i thought it might be a good idea to talk to people who are going through the same as me, its comforting to know your not alone. and lastly but most importantly R.I.P Bayleigh Baby 18/11/2004 - 14/01/2013 ***x mummy loves your forever ***x

[Bayleigh's Mummy]

I have read all your lovely comments guys, thank you so much i am feeling a bit better today actually :-) Bayleigh was a pedigree staffordshire bull terrier and i rescued her when she was 6 she was in the friday ad UK or in USA like the penney saver, she ment the world to me, amd she was truly the perfect dog, here is a picture people much love to you all

Emma xx

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[Rhapsedy]

Bayleigh is so beautiful! I'm glad to hear you are feeling a little better.