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[Bayleigh's Mummy]

I lost my baby on monday 14th of january 2013, It was awful circumstances, i was told she had kennel cough, a month before she died, i paid out money to treat her with aintibiotics and advocat, she was ok but the week before she died she went downhill, she stopped wanting to go out or eat and was constantly coughing so i carried her to the vets on the monday she was given three injections and i got sent to the main vets to have her chest x-rayed, i had to leave her there and wait for them to call which was heart breaking, then at half 1 i got a call from the vets to say she had tumours all over her left lung which were squashing her windpipe making it difficult for her to breath, and there was and there was nothing that could be done and she died in my arms from euthanasia 4 hours later, i am truly heartbroken, she was everything to me my whole world infact and it was always just me, her and the cat, now its just me and the cat who is also finding this very difficult, i honestly thought my dog had kennel cough not lung cancer and i feel awful that because the vet thought this too, my poor dog on all three occasions (one of which was for over an hour) was made to wait outside with me in the cold, for the vet to see her incase she gave her kennel cough to another dog. I am just completely lost and to make matters worse it hasn't even been two weeks since i lost her and my mum is already telling me that she understands but i should try to move on and stop writing how im feeling on my posts on facebook incase people get sick of me talking about it, im trying so hard to get on with my life and stop being depressed i even tried talking about my sadness yesterday to my mum and she just changed the subject like she was pissed off me talking about it, I just decided bottling it up really doesn't help i just sink further into depression so i thought it might be a good idea to talk to people who are going through the same as me, its comforting to know your not alone. and lastly but most importantly R.I.P Bayleigh Baby 18/11/2004 - 14/01/2013 ***x mummy loves your forever ***x

[moon_beam]

Hi, Emma, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, and the wonderful picture of your beloved Bayleigh. She has such a sweet face. This grief journey is a process, Emma - - there will be ups and downs, twists and turns and turnarounds especially when you least expect them - - so please know we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.

I hope today is treating you and your precious feline companion kindly, Emma, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Bayleigh's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Bayleigh's Mummy]

Thank you Moon Beem,

I am doing a little better, i'm eating now and sleeping a little better, i still haven't been out really yet, apart from coffee, because i dread coming home, thats one of the hardest parts of the day.
and thank you she did have a sweet face, everyone who knew her or met her always commented on her cute face, soft fur and they all just wanted to cuddle her and get a big kiss from her and she is really missed by alot of my friends who all told me that she really was the best dog the'd met. It really helps to know she was so loved and not just by me.

Those eyes of hers were so sweet and innocent she got a few to many treats because i just couldn't resist giving her "one more" :-)

Also Millie my cat is doing ok i think, she's still eating ok, she won't get out of Bayleigh's bed much she loves sleeping in there so i've had to allow it, i think it's so sweet that she misses her doggy friend, they used to sleep on my bed together.

Hope you are well too and thank you for your kind comments

Emma x