In Memory Of My Baby Boy Gizy, My life stopped... miss you every day :( Options

[Gizy's Mom]

Sunday December 9th 2012 I lost my beautiful little boy Gizy. Two large-breed dogs without the leash attacked him, I tried to protect him by covering him with my body but the injuries he received were too much to handle for his little gentle body.
Gizy was a tiny 17-months old Papillon only 12 pounds. He was the sweetest little boy and the best furry son mommy can wish for. I miss him so much… Every day it is a battle for me to survive without him.
He was my child, my silly little boy who loved me unconditionally and followed me around the house like a little tail.
He was full of energy! He loved to played hide and seek; he loved to steal my socks and make me chase him around the house; he loved cottage cheese and boiled eggs…
He was extremely smart. When we brought him home at the age of 2.5 months he was fully patty trained! The fluffy little ball asked to go outside where the grass was taller than him.
In his dog training school he was the fastest to learn commands and comply with orders. I was such a proud mom!
We did everything together and now I feel like a part of me was taken away… I can’t stop crying.
I keep fresh flowers right next to his little leather couch where I put his photograph and his toys.
I bought a “Name your own Star” package so now there is a beautiful bright star shining in the sky under the name GIZY.
I will be delivering food to the nearest dog shelter, making donations in the name of Gizy…
I don’t know how long it will take for this to get easier… At this time I take it day by day…
I love you Gizy with all my heart and I will miss you forever!
You are the best little baby and I am glad I got to spoil you!
Love,

Mommy

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[DannysMom]

Gizy's Mom, my heart goes out to you over the loss of your sweet, precious Gizy. Such a cute, loving little face! And he was only so young and you lost him in such a tragic way. I am so sorry for your loss. Gizy gave you so much love and brought you so much joy and fun. I know it must hurt so much. We, the people here on this board, understand. We have all at one time or another gone through losing a beloved companion animal. We know how painful it is, how it tears you up inside, and I know it must be especially hard at Christmas time. I hope that you have the comfort and support of loving friends to help you through your grief.

Hugs,
DannysMom

[Gizy's Mom]

Thank you DannysMom.
I have some support from friends and family but my baby and I were so close, he was mine! He waited for me at the door smiling when I got home! He was momma's little boy. I don't have children and he was my son, the son I never had. It is so painful to have to live without him. I wish there was something I could do, I would do anything to get him back.
God help me... It hurts so much ((

[PomMom]

Hi Gizy's mom,
First off, I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Gizy. I have'nt been able to write about my own recent loss yet because I can't find the words, but I felt I should reply to your post because I am all too familiar with the pain of losing a companion in such a tragic way. Seven years ago my boy Kodiac (a 16 month old chocolate pomeranian) was attacked by a neighbors large aggresive dog that ran into our yard. He was killed right in front of my dad who was watching him while I was out of town for one night. I had been calling home often to check on him and when my mom answered the phone but couldn't speak my heart went in my throat. That phone call was the worst day of my life.

I still wonder sometimes how I survived the pain, it felt like it should have killed me it hurt so much. But I have learned to live with the hurt, for me time is the only thing that helps. I can only be thankful he was in my life even if it wasn't long enough, he was so special, what you said about your Gizy reminded me so much of him. The dog I haven't been able to talk about is Jack, also a Pomeranian. I lost him almost four months ago in a horrific way and I can't find the words or courage to tell his story, I can't see through the tears. The guilt and the replaying in my mind brings me to my knees. I have to keep reminding myself he is not in pain now, he can't suffer again and I loved him as much as humanly possible.

Gizy sounds like he was very muched loved. We would move heaven and earth to protect our babies, but sometimes things happen that are beyond our control, it leaves us feeling so helpless. I just wanted to let you know you are not alone, everyone here has somebody they are missing and understand your pain. You will be in my thoughts and prayers tonight.

Take care of yourself,
Kodi and Jack's mom

[Gizy's Mom]

Thank you PomMom,

I am so very sorry about your little babies.
I found this web site because I needed to talk to someone who knew and felt my emotional pain... It seems like a lot of people don't understand how hard our baby's death can hit us. I got grey hair since my baby left me... I don't care if I eat or not during the day, I lost the feeling of being hungry. I can't sleep and have to take pills to help me at night. This is such a deep emotional trauma I can't describe. That's why I am on this website connecting to other moms and dads that love their fluffy children with all their hearts just like I do.
I hear people tell me to stay strong, but how can I when my son, my little baby boy, my gorgeous little pumpkin is not with me?!

I can't describe how much I miss you Gizy! Mommy loves you with all her heart!