My Sweet Wolfie Is Gone And I'm Devastated Options

[Kellyt]

My approx 6 yr old shepherd husky mix, Wolfie, died unexpectedly today. I took him to a state of the art 24 hr emergency vet, and despite numerous tests and ultrasounds, they missed diagnosing what wound up killing him-pancreatitis. My husband and I cannot believe that they didn't catch it sooner. There was talk of leptospirosis and liver cancer, as his enzymes were through the roof, but an ultrasound revealed gallbladder issues. Wolfie went in to surgery, and we were very cautiously optimistic, as the vet did say there could be infection complications bc he had bile in his abdomen.
Fast forward two hours, and we get a call that Wolfie took a turn for the worse and his heart stopped during surgery. We race there, in the middle of an impending hurricane, to find out he was gone. GONE. All due to a heart arrhythmia brought on by complications from pancreatitis. We were shocked and stunned. Pancreatitis was never mentioned, despite all the blood test and ultrasounds. Not once!
So now,needless to say, we are devastated. Our boy is gone. We weren't able to have children, so he's our baby. Everything I do, smell, see, and touch reminds me of him. To think of a future without him takes my breath away. I plan on going to a support group, but in the meantime, we're here, left to struggle with our shock and grief at losing the most gentle, sweet, funny, beautiful creature. We were so blessed to have him in our lives, but we feel cheated bc we didn't have more time with him, and bc he didn't have the long life he so deserved.

[moon_beam]

Hi, Kelly, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I'm glad that going back to work was not a traumatic transition for you. Having a job during a time of crisis or grief can be a "positive".

In response to your topic about enduring all the "firsts" - - this is very painful both emotionally and physically. Even though it seems like you are "adjusting" to his physical absence there will be times when you will reach out to touch your beloved Wolfie - - or you may go to the back door only to remember that he no longer needs you to open the door for him - - or you'll think you will need to renew his county license tag - - and you will feel like there is no end to this painful grief. But I promise you, Kelly, that eventually your deep grief will ease - - BUT you will NEVER forget your beloved Wolfie. He will NEVER be "erased" from your heart or your memories. I promise you that your beloved Wolfie IS forever a part of you no matter how much time continues with your earthly journey.

Kelly, I hope today is treating you kindly, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Wolfie's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam