My Sweet Wolfie Is Gone And I'm Devastated Options

[Kellyt]

My approx 6 yr old shepherd husky mix, Wolfie, died unexpectedly today. I took him to a state of the art 24 hr emergency vet, and despite numerous tests and ultrasounds, they missed diagnosing what wound up killing him-pancreatitis. My husband and I cannot believe that they didn't catch it sooner. There was talk of leptospirosis and liver cancer, as his enzymes were through the roof, but an ultrasound revealed gallbladder issues. Wolfie went in to surgery, and we were very cautiously optimistic, as the vet did say there could be infection complications bc he had bile in his abdomen.
Fast forward two hours, and we get a call that Wolfie took a turn for the worse and his heart stopped during surgery. We race there, in the middle of an impending hurricane, to find out he was gone. GONE. All due to a heart arrhythmia brought on by complications from pancreatitis. We were shocked and stunned. Pancreatitis was never mentioned, despite all the blood test and ultrasounds. Not once!
So now,needless to say, we are devastated. Our boy is gone. We weren't able to have children, so he's our baby. Everything I do, smell, see, and touch reminds me of him. To think of a future without him takes my breath away. I plan on going to a support group, but in the meantime, we're here, left to struggle with our shock and grief at losing the most gentle, sweet, funny, beautiful creature. We were so blessed to have him in our lives, but we feel cheated bc we didn't have more time with him, and bc he didn't have the long life he so deserved.

[Kellyt]

Hi Lynn,
Thank you so much. I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet Lucymae. Yes, the pain is so devastating, it's impossible to describe to someone who hasn't experienced it. Everywhere we look we are reminded of Wolfie. I hope that eventually that will make me smile, but right now it honestly feels traumatic. Makes me wish I could will him back. That's just one of the many excruciating things right now. I'm at a point where I just want his physical presence back-to be able to hug and kiss him, even for just one more time.
What definitely helps is the support of others, and that includes all of you amazing people here. I wish we could have a support group in person, but this is great too.
I'm keeping you in my thoughts, Lynn. Hoping that you can feel some peace knowing that Lucymae was and is so loved and that she passed on knowing that you love her.
Hugs,
Kelly