My Baby, Mackerel, My boy is gone tonight Options

[tljedi11]

He's gone. Only a year and 4 months and he's gone. A german shepherd/chow mix, he was my pride and joy. Always so energetic, playful and willing to give kisses.

Mack was killed (probably instantly), hit by a car. The vet said his skull was crushed, so he probably didn't feel any pain. I still can't believe it. He can't be gone. I can't sleep--everytime I close my eyes, I see him. I see him bringing me his toy rope to play tug o' war, him putting his head on my lap to be petted, us just laying on the bed watching tv. He always loved to cuddle. At 65 lbs and the softest short fur, he was my pillow and I loved hugging him. I hugged him and kissed him whenever I could--he was the most handsome puppy.

I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm so used to having the two dogs and cat follow me around the house as I did menial house chores everyday. Now, I don't have him to trip over. I just keep seeing him through things in the house that remind me of him. I picked up the dogs bowls today and realized we had just bought Mack a big bag of dog food. I miss him so much already.

I can't stop crying. My head hurts from crying. But everytime I think of him, my thoughts that I will never see him again or touch him again breaks my heart over and over again. I keep thinking he is just in another room and any minute now, he'll come bounding in.

I miss his barking. He would always bark at our older dog, Bass. Bass would be sleeping or just laying around and Mack would bark and nudge him until Bass barked back. Mack always, always wanted to play.

Like I said, Mack was my pride and joy. How do you get over such heartbreak? I wish it was all just a bad dream....

[tljedi11]

It was definitely a different feeling to have Marlin come into our lives so soon after Mack's passing. I think in the beginning it was hard because I still had a lot of reminders of Mack not being around. We had put his toys and bowl in the garage, but it was still just different not having him running around. When we brought Marlin home, it wasn't the excitement you usually feel when you bring home a new furbaby. It was just kinda like, "Oh, ok." I also noticed I wasn't as affectionate towards Marlin as I was towards Mack. But I'm working on it...any new furbaby should have just as much love as any previous furbabies (besides, Mack wouldn't be jealous) because we shouldn't "take it out" on them; it wasn't their fault our hearts were broken a time before (as hard as it is...)...

luvmycatzz--thanks for sharing what you learned from your Gwen. As long as we take something away from their time being with us, their lives were not in vain and their memory will be kept alive.

Saki & Freyja's Mom--what kind of dog is Hathor? She also seems very lucky to have a loving home after a traumatic time...