Sweet Betsy Is Gone Options

[misong]

I'm 85. I've been here before. In the last 12 years, I've lost two sons, two husbands, a brother and four wonderful canine companions (the canine companions in the past nine monthss).

I lost my 10 year old toy poodle Wednesday and today is the anniversary of the suicide of my son, Scott. I can't sleep or eat and I'm exhausted.

I've been reading your sad and touching stories and I want you to know you are in my heart and prayers. I'm sorry I don't have the moxy or the energy to respond right now, or even to tell my own story. My mind and body need rest. I just wantd to be here and make contact. This is a healing, restful place, and thank God for all you beautiful souls.

Betsy's story is coming. For now, just want to say, she had many problems: enlarged heart (probably in congestive heart failure), calcification of her bronchial tubes, pancreatitis, elevated liver enzymes, diabetes and renal failure. I had Betssy for only four months but our bond was so great. She was a very special little girl. I was with her for the last 14 hours of her life. I didn't leave her side for a minute and I was able to help her to the other side. I'm grateful for that.

I just can't do this any more. My heart is breaking,. And, oh, the guilt! I should have been more vigilent. I feel I failed her, poor little innocent who trusted me to take care of her.

God bless you all.

Mary

[Gretta's Mom]

Hello Misong

The solo I sing this morning in church "The Lord Will Make a Way Somehow" will be for my little sister and for you. You've both got such crushing burdens to bear. I respect and honor you for carrying them with the strength that only comes from a Higher Place.

Blessings,

Gretta and Rufus's mom