Sweet Betsy Is Gone Options

[misong]

I'm 85. I've been here before. In the last 12 years, I've lost two sons, two husbands, a brother and four wonderful canine companions (the canine companions in the past nine monthss).

I lost my 10 year old toy poodle Wednesday and today is the anniversary of the suicide of my son, Scott. I can't sleep or eat and I'm exhausted.

I've been reading your sad and touching stories and I want you to know you are in my heart and prayers. I'm sorry I don't have the moxy or the energy to respond right now, or even to tell my own story. My mind and body need rest. I just wantd to be here and make contact. This is a healing, restful place, and thank God for all you beautiful souls.

Betsy's story is coming. For now, just want to say, she had many problems: enlarged heart (probably in congestive heart failure), calcification of her bronchial tubes, pancreatitis, elevated liver enzymes, diabetes and renal failure. I had Betssy for only four months but our bond was so great. She was a very special little girl. I was with her for the last 14 hours of her life. I didn't leave her side for a minute and I was able to help her to the other side. I'm grateful for that.

I just can't do this any more. My heart is breaking,. And, oh, the guilt! I should have been more vigilent. I feel I failed her, poor little innocent who trusted me to take care of her.

God bless you all.

Mary

[Gretta's Mom]

Misong

My heart is with you in your terrible string of losses. How can one person bear it all? Never have I heard of a heart so sliced and shattered. Misong, please don't feel like you have to share anything with us that you're not ready to do. I know that sounds so trite, but i know a little of the utter exhaustion that comes from being battered over and over with unspeakable grief.

Thank you so much for reaching out to your lightning strike family. We stand with you. Our hearts and our strength are ALWAYS with you and someone is here 24/7. Please wrap yourself in our caring - and in the caring of the Father of us all. And, if you can, please post a word now and then to let us know how you are doing. Because we care. And please use the private message feature to connect with those whose words and hearts touch your especially.

Misong, please take all my strength and use it as long as you need to. Betsy lives. She's a spirit like all of us will be someday. And her blessed, comforting spirit is right there beside you where it's always been. Betsy loves and so do it.

Gretta's mom