Sweet Betsy Is Gone Options

[misong]

I'm 85. I've been here before. In the last 12 years, I've lost two sons, two husbands, a brother and four wonderful canine companions (the canine companions in the past nine monthss).

I lost my 10 year old toy poodle Wednesday and today is the anniversary of the suicide of my son, Scott. I can't sleep or eat and I'm exhausted.

I've been reading your sad and touching stories and I want you to know you are in my heart and prayers. I'm sorry I don't have the moxy or the energy to respond right now, or even to tell my own story. My mind and body need rest. I just wantd to be here and make contact. This is a healing, restful place, and thank God for all you beautiful souls.

Betsy's story is coming. For now, just want to say, she had many problems: enlarged heart (probably in congestive heart failure), calcification of her bronchial tubes, pancreatitis, elevated liver enzymes, diabetes and renal failure. I had Betssy for only four months but our bond was so great. She was a very special little girl. I was with her for the last 14 hours of her life. I didn't leave her side for a minute and I was able to help her to the other side. I'm grateful for that.

I just can't do this any more. My heart is breaking,. And, oh, the guilt! I should have been more vigilent. I feel I failed her, poor little innocent who trusted me to take care of her.

God bless you all.

Mary

[Mistletoe]

Misong---

So sorry for your loss----it sounds like Betsy's problems were so many, that there was not much that could have done for her--the medical issues were serious, just one at a time. But I understand how you feel--unfortunately, we have to depend on our eyes and feelings in telling if our babies our sick-----But the last 14 hours of her life---she had you and that is so great!!!!

I found this quote the other day--and it so fits those of us who have come to this site to unburden ourselves----

"Grief is like the ocean; it comes on waves ebbing and flowing. Sometimes the water is calm, and sometimes it is overwhelming. All we can do is learn to swim."

Take care of yourself---
Mary