Loosing My Mind, not sure if my baby angel is gonna make it. Options

[terribebber]

Hi to all. this is my first post. I am loosing my mind and just need to know that others understand what i am going thru. My 2 year old Lucky girl is so sick right now and i am fighting so hard for her life.She is my baby angel. She is a 5 lb red headed tabby. She is full grown but looks like a kitten. so so precious. I feel like i am going to have a mental break down. July 4th she went missing. I found her on July 5th really late that night. She was really sick and clearly has a respiritory infection. i get her inside cleaned up her face got all the goop off her nose, which was so awful i just about gagged. I started her on the water dropper b/c she is dehydrated. well she all the sudden starts gagging and throws up just a little and then i notice something on her tail and at her rear. There are worms crawing in and out of her anus. I absolutely freak! So i get her bundled up and take her straight to the emergency vet. At this time it was 4:00 am. They get her in the examine room and tell me that these are maggotts. That she had been hit by a fly strike while she was down and sick and she would have to have her bowels irrigated. So they keep her over night, remove maggots get her on antiboitics and fluids. they call sat and have me pick up her up. She still looks awful but i did it anyways. So later that night at home she has a seizure. I never want to see another one of those for the rest of my life. Well she survives that then i get her thru the night and in the morning she eats. Two hrs later its vomiting for the rest of the day. I have put an air mattress in her room i have not left her side since i picked her up. i literally have not slept more than 3 or 4 hrs total since sat. B/c of feeding and water. So i took her back to vet yesterday morn. they kept her over night. She looks no better than when i first found her. I am so stressed i feel i am loosing her and i cannot take anymore days off from work to be at home with her. My husband acts like he does not care. The vet bills are becoming crazy and i am so stressed my hands are shaking constantly. Does anyone understand how i feel and can offer any words of hope or wisdom? I just wish i could talk to someone who actually cared about how i feel and knew what i am going thru.

[terribebber]

Thank you so much for the reply. I am sitting at my desk at work balling like a big baby and counting the min till i can get home and check on her. I brought her home at lunch and got her to eat a little. She is just so weak and so lethargic. its almost like my baby is not there its just a little soft body. The dr have tried really hard. Her blood work was good and she is on meds. they sent her home b/c she refused to eat for the vet techs. She fought and would not eat at all. They of course gave her fluids but she must eat. She ate a little for me and i was fearful of forcing too much b/c i did not want her to vomit. I am just so afraid that when i get home i will find her gone. This is absolutely consuming me. My work is suffering, my home life is suffering, my other pets i am sure feel negleted. To top it off i have walking pneumonia. So i myself may end up in the hospital. It just keeps getting worse. Of course everyone keeps acting like its no big deal and that i am silly to spend so much on a cat. I cant help it, you cant put a price on a life. Whether human or animal. I have no children so my animals are my children. I also realize i am at the begining of this difficult recovery. I just feel so hopeless and helpless. It is so heart breaking to see my little angel like this. I feel like this is my fault. I noticed on wed morning she did not eat as much as usual and was acting a little sluggish. i just thought that was due to the heat. It was 98 deg here on the 4th. We had a pool party and she got scared of all the people and noise she ran off. Normally she comes back within an hour or so but when she did not come out for dinner i should have known somthing was really wrong. I did not start getting really worried till the next morning when she did not show up for breakfast. i cried all day called every shelter, searched our 4 acre property for hours. Then by the grace of god i found her around 1 in the morning. If i would have paid more attention maybe i could have stopped this before it got so out of control. My husband told me i was over reacting and has not once helped me to feed or water her. My parents said that i should just have her put down. WHAT! they could not believe how much i have spent on dr bills. i just feel so alone and have no one at all at home to help me cope. You have no idea how much it means to me that you responded with such a loving reply and with such care and concern. I hope miss news enjoys all the love and spoiling she is going to get. You sound like such a great parent she is so lucky to have found you.