My Kitty Bella Is Gone Options

[BellasRainbow]

I lost my companion of twelve years last Thursday. She was a beautiful black and white Turkish Van. The illnesses took her within two weeks; she was in kidney failure and liver failure as well as suffering from bladder stones. Due to her multiple illnesses, she was unable to recover from the bladder surgery. She was no longer eating or drinking, and she was hiding from us, which was totally out of character for her. My husband and I were forced to make the difficult decision to euthanize her. I can't believe she is gone.

She was my best buddy, my constant companion. I have such guilt over the euthanasia. We were present, and my face was the last thing that she saw. I have such a hard time believing that the procedure wasn't painful for her, even though I have read multiple sites that detail the procedure. My brain knows that she was suffering, and that we did the humane thing, my heart just doesn't want to believe it. I am so lonely now, and I miss her so much. My husband and I are expecting our first child in October, and I really wanted Bella to meet the baby. She was such a friendly cat, everyone loved her, and I know she would have loved the baby. Honestly, I am at a total loss. I have so many things to do, but I just don't really want to do any of them. I feel like a have a hole in my heart big enough to drive through.

[moon_beam]

Hi, BellasRainbow, please permit me to add my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Bella. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. Euthanasia is the last gift of love we can give to our companions at great sacrifice to ourselves so that they can be restored to their former youthfulness in the company of the angels.

This grief journey is filled with so many different emotions that can overwhelm us all at one time that we can literally begin to feel like we are going insane. This grief journey is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride. As DannysMom has so comfortingly reassured you, please let me affirm her words: This grief journey is one of the most difficult and painful experiences you will know on this side of eternity - - both emotionally and physically. When we are in deep grief, our bodies are literally in a "survival mode" - - all of the functions are geared toward protecting your body from any further "attack." So what you are feeling in terms of lack of energy, etc., is very normal. Grieving takes a lot of energy, so it is very, very important for you to not put any undue pressure on yourself to "do" what is not absolutely necessary. The stress of grieving also suppresses the immune system, so it is vitally important that you get plenty of rest and nourishment. One of the many physical effects of grieving is a lack of appetite. Even if you can only drink a cup of broth several times a day this will help.

I can truly understand how deeply sorrowful you are that your beloved Bella will not be able to be physically with you when you bring your baby home. The good news is that your beloved Bella's sweet Living Spirit will be with you, your husband, and new baby, for your beloved Bella continues to share your earthly journey just as she always has and always will. The love bond you and your beloved Bella share is eternal - - it is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space. Your beloved Bella will always be a part of your heart and your memories - - she is forever and always a heartbeat close to you.

I know there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the seering pain of loss that is in your heart. I can only hope the words I share with you will offer you some measure of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope as you travel your grief journey. One of the many things you need to remember is that you are not alone. Each of us here do understand what you are going through, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.

Thank you so much for sharing your beloved Bella with us. She is soooooo pretty, and you are eternally blessed with being her Forever Mom. I hope today is treating you kindly, BellasRainbow. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam