My Baby Boy Options

[Starlight]

I have been reading the forum for a while, but haven’t posted yet. It’s been just over 2 months since my baby boy was killed, and I’m afraid it isn’t getting any easier. I’ve been trying hard to cope, but seriously it isn’t working.

My beautiful little dog was killed by a poison bait. I’d had him since he was 9 weeks old, and he would have been 8 years old on his next birthday. We rushed him to the vet as soon as we realised something was wrong, but it was too late. He went into awful convulsions in my arms on the way, and was unconscious by the time we got there.

It was an agonizing end for a happy, brave and loving little boy. No animal should ever die that way, and this little boy was my best friend, and the light of my life. If only I’d been more careful and had him on a lead it probably wouldn’t have happened.

I keep going over and over it in my mind, and I can’t stop crying. Please help me.

[Starlight]

For some reason today has been particularly hard. Not a day goes but that I don't cry, and ache to hold my baby boy. A friend tells me that it takes 2 years before you can begin to feel normal again, but really I don't think I can take much more of this.

DannysMom, you are right, and I should be doing something to try and stop the 1080 baits. I've made contact with someone in New Zealand who has made a documentary about the poison there, and a group who are trying to get legislation passed in the US to have it totally banned (it already has very limited use there). There doesn't seem to be anyone fighting it here in Australia, although there are some trials going on with a different compound that is more humane, and has an antidote.

It's still so unbelievable that this could have happened to my own precious baby boy, who was so gentle and loving and full of life, and had never known a moments pain before. I miss him so very much.

Starlight

[DannysMom]

For some reason today has been particularly hard. Not a day goes but that I don't cry, and ache to hold my baby boy. A friend tells me that it takes 2 years before you can begin to feel normal again, but really I don't think I can take much more of this.

DannysMom, you are right, and I should be doing something to try and stop the 1080 baits. I've made contact with someone in New Zealand who has made a documentary about the poison there, and a group who are trying to get legislation passed in the US to have it totally banned (it already has very limited use there). There doesn't seem to be anyone fighting it here in Australia, although there are some trials going on with a different compound that is more humane, and has an antidote.

It's still so unbelievable that this could have happened to my own precious baby boy, who was so gentle and loving and full of life, and had never known a moments pain before. I miss him so very much.

Starlight

Starlight, I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time. It is only understandable why you feel this way, because your sweet little boy was taken from you in such a horrible, horrible way! When I read up on the 1080 baits I was just so shocked to read how much pain they cause and how agonizing the death is. It is incomprehensible to me how such things can be allowed. I'm glad to hear that you made contact with a person in New Zealand about this issue. Perhaps his documentary can be circulated in Australia. Could he put it on youtube? Maybe if there is more awareness of it then more people in Australia will try to fight it.

I looked at the picture of your little boy again, and my heart aches for you. What a sweet, happy little guy! You can just see how happy and sweet he was. My heart goes out to you, starlight. I hope you can find a measure of comfort in the sweet memories of your little boy. He will always live on in your heart.