Wow Lose Them Both...:( Options

[stephaniemag]

Yesterday my cat passed away. She was my best friend, well only friend, for the last 10 years, I am a mess, she got a disease from a tick. She was anorexic and going blind and had an ear infection. i brought her to the vet and they gave me medications for her and the next day she was having trouble breathing, it got worse in the car while i was rushing her to the vet the next day she was dying, she was looking up at me crying and gasping like asking me to help her and shes scared, I can't get over this and its ripping me apart, she was so special to me, she did the cutest funniest things, I cant believe shes not there when i look at where she used to sleep. I hate coming home now. I still smell her and wonder if there was more i could have done to help her.
I try to think about good memories but all I see is her gasping for breath,
do you think she was scared??

now 15 minutes ago, my hamster, the only other pet ive had just died of old age. I had him for years as well.
Both at the same time within barely 24 hours is unbearable. I feel alone, guilty, like I hate myself.
I cant believe this is happening all of it piling on like this.

I feel like I should have pet my cat more then i did, and given her a better life then i did. Her last days I was shoving pills down her throat, stressing her out, thats how she spent her last days and I feel horrible.

how do I cope?

[Gretta's Mom]

Hello Stephanie

Just stopping by to see how you are doing and to lend you a little strength today. Your kittie and your hamster are alive and well in the Perfect World. That's where they came from and that's where they've gone back to. A place of warmth, peace, sunshine, lots of friends - and are still on their jobs: watching over you, guiding your steps, and,most important of all, loving and being loved by you. Someday you will join them there - and what a day of rejoicing THAT will be! My Gretta (the kindest chocolate lab who ever lived) has met them both and is showing them all around the Perfect World.

When you feel a little puff of love, or think an unexpected thought or your feet wander to a place you hadn't planned on going, that's your fur-pair working - but then love is no work - it's love.

Live each moment at a time (when you're in such pain that's all you CAN do) and please be kind to yourself. Do what you have to do to mourn them and remember that they are ALWAYS right by your side.

Blessings

Gretta's mom

[John P]

Hi Stephanie,

You've come to the right place. Dealing with your double loss must be very hard. It helps to console yourself with the fact that you did the best you could knowing what you did. If our furkids could only *tell* us what's wrong it would make things easier, but they can't. Sometimes, not even the vet can figure things out. For now, be kind to yourself, give yourself time and rest.