Tucker Deserves The Best In Life And In Heaven Options

[WAdoglover]

I have started writing this several times, each with a heartfelt justification of why I love Tucker. I am going to put that aside for the moment. I, like everyone else on this site, joined out of a deep love, perhaps beyond many pet owners (just the term pet owner makes me shudder as if they are just property). I feel such a lonely devestation as if no one else could possibly understand what I am going through. I know that is not the case, but few people show in public or verbalize how devastated they are over their animals.

Tucker is still with me, but on borrowed time. This borrowed time even has extended beyond what has been fair to my fur child. He is suffering from larangeal paralysis and degenerative nerve damage. Surgery is out of the question. Some days I wish that God would make the umbearable decision for me and take him to the rainbow bridge since I am having a difficult time making the right decision. Truth is, my children are in the middle of finals and my oldest who is a Junior and on the verge of a 4.0. Really??? Am I really making a decision for him to hang on so that my kid can get a 4.0? Or am I just using this as an excuse to have more time with him? Am I avoiding the issue because I do not want my children to feel the pain I am currently experiencing? I spend my days laying down with him keeping him calm. I know we cannot keep on this path, and I know Tucker deserves better.

Perhaps the real issue for some of us who experience this type of grief is the depression that goes with it. Is it really reasonable to think that I can make a decision when experiencing the depression that goes with it? I am not ashamed of the deep love I have for my dog but at the moment it feels like a curse.

[Bobbie]

Dear WA and Tucker,

I just know that both of you will savor every second that you are together now. My heart goes out to you, WA for you know what will happen and when it will happen and that is also very dfficult to live with. But the love you have for Tucker, and show it in every post here, far surpasses the anxiety and you are giving Tucker the greatest gift of LOVE there can possibly be.

I am redoubling my thoughts and prayers for YOU and Tucker as you make this final earthly journey together. And know that Tucker is cherishing every second with you as much as you are with him. You are such a loving, caring mommy. There is also a special place for you in Heaven!

I will let all the animal angels whom I can remember their names to keep a special watch for Tucker. He will get the Welcome of all Welcomes.

And I will be here for YOU for as long as you want or need me. And so will so many other LS'ers.

God bless you WA & Tucker!
Bobbie & Trevor