Tucker Deserves The Best In Life And In Heaven Options

[WAdoglover]

I have started writing this several times, each with a heartfelt justification of why I love Tucker. I am going to put that aside for the moment. I, like everyone else on this site, joined out of a deep love, perhaps beyond many pet owners (just the term pet owner makes me shudder as if they are just property). I feel such a lonely devestation as if no one else could possibly understand what I am going through. I know that is not the case, but few people show in public or verbalize how devastated they are over their animals.

Tucker is still with me, but on borrowed time. This borrowed time even has extended beyond what has been fair to my fur child. He is suffering from larangeal paralysis and degenerative nerve damage. Surgery is out of the question. Some days I wish that God would make the umbearable decision for me and take him to the rainbow bridge since I am having a difficult time making the right decision. Truth is, my children are in the middle of finals and my oldest who is a Junior and on the verge of a 4.0. Really??? Am I really making a decision for him to hang on so that my kid can get a 4.0? Or am I just using this as an excuse to have more time with him? Am I avoiding the issue because I do not want my children to feel the pain I am currently experiencing? I spend my days laying down with him keeping him calm. I know we cannot keep on this path, and I know Tucker deserves better.

Perhaps the real issue for some of us who experience this type of grief is the depression that goes with it. Is it really reasonable to think that I can make a decision when experiencing the depression that goes with it? I am not ashamed of the deep love I have for my dog but at the moment it feels like a curse.

[moon_beam]

Hi, WA, thank you so much for sharing with us how you and your precious Tucker are doing. Yes, medications do have side effects that can actually make matters worse. I'm so glad you were able to improve his quality of days with you by taking him off the medication that was contributing to his discomfort.

I know how difficult the next few hours / days will be for you as you anticipate "the appointment." I know you and your precious Tucker will savor every moment you have together, and when the time comes for him to be released from his physical body you will be able to find the courage to send him home to the angels.

Thank you so very much for sharing your precious Tucker with us, WA. I hope today is treating you and your precious Tucker kindly. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, WA, and that each of us are here for you.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam