Tucker Deserves The Best In Life And In Heaven Options

[WAdoglover]

I have started writing this several times, each with a heartfelt justification of why I love Tucker. I am going to put that aside for the moment. I, like everyone else on this site, joined out of a deep love, perhaps beyond many pet owners (just the term pet owner makes me shudder as if they are just property). I feel such a lonely devestation as if no one else could possibly understand what I am going through. I know that is not the case, but few people show in public or verbalize how devastated they are over their animals.

Tucker is still with me, but on borrowed time. This borrowed time even has extended beyond what has been fair to my fur child. He is suffering from larangeal paralysis and degenerative nerve damage. Surgery is out of the question. Some days I wish that God would make the umbearable decision for me and take him to the rainbow bridge since I am having a difficult time making the right decision. Truth is, my children are in the middle of finals and my oldest who is a Junior and on the verge of a 4.0. Really??? Am I really making a decision for him to hang on so that my kid can get a 4.0? Or am I just using this as an excuse to have more time with him? Am I avoiding the issue because I do not want my children to feel the pain I am currently experiencing? I spend my days laying down with him keeping him calm. I know we cannot keep on this path, and I know Tucker deserves better.

Perhaps the real issue for some of us who experience this type of grief is the depression that goes with it. Is it really reasonable to think that I can make a decision when experiencing the depression that goes with it? I am not ashamed of the deep love I have for my dog but at the moment it feels like a curse.

[AmandaWI]

WAdoglover, the impending loss of a beloved pet is one of the most heartbreaking situations that we face. There are no easy answers. Everyone feels guilt later regardless. Either a day too early, or a day too late. The problem is that they cannot talk. You may have to put yourself in his position and think about what you would want. The only positive, and you will not even be able to consider it a positive for quite some time, is knowing that your boy will never be sick or old again and nothing bad can ever happen to him. It is the last most loving gift that we can give. He will be restored to health and youth and be happy and playing with all of our babies until we are reunited again. It is a very personal decision and everyone feels differently. You will be supported and accepted no matter what you decide. It is a blessing to have a forum like this to come to where we all have been through what you are going through now. I hope that you find peace in whatever you decide. I'm so sorry that you have to go through this horrible part of sharing your life with a pet. I will be thinking of you. Please let us know how you are. I wish there were more that I could offer....

Amanda
Kodiak & Bailee's mom