Rocky My Precious Hero, i really need help Options

[hesista]

Rocky, my MOST beloved and precious hero, guide, soulmate, master, and my everthing died 8 days ago.i have been tormented with regrets that i didn't bring him home from the vet so that he and i could spend the last few days together at home saying goodbye. Instead when the cancer showed in the xray to have spread throughout his stomach and spleen and the only option i was given was to euthanize i couldn't stand to see rocky struggle another minute so i agreed.

I miss Rocky so badly
I feel so terrified and scared to not have him with me physically because he was not only my precious child he was my soulmate, partner and my everything. I rescued rocky. I won't go into that detail because i know he doesn't want to be remembered for what he was in but for what he blossomed into: a strong, courageous, wise, noble, handsome, gracious, regal, brilliant prince. His happiness was my happiness, when rocky was feeling good so then was I. It made my whole world to see him doing good and happy and thats what i lived for and to do

I really need help. I feel like I'm not gonna make it
Can someone or people respond to me with kind and healing words
I really need help right now

Hesista

[hesista]

Its been really hard again today, its two weeks now since Rocky died and its harder after two weeks than it was the first week. I spoke to a counselor who specializes in pet death grief support and she told me that for most of people seriously grieving the death of their animals it gets a lot worse for a long time before it gets better. Its not the case that it just gets better day by day, that instead it gets a lot worse for a long time before it gets better. She said a lot of people go through that, and that when that happens understand that can be expected. When she that, it helped me to get a grip on what was happening to me.

I feel exhausted and today i felt dizzy so i took some multi vitamins which i never take and a few other nutritional supplements, moonbeam is right, this shock and grieving takes a serious toll on our health. I knew it would be bad but i didn't realize the toll it would have on me, i really didn't realize the intense toll on our strength.

I am just taking it one minute to the next because that all i can do.

Hesista