Rocky My Precious Hero, i really need help Options

[hesista]

Rocky, my MOST beloved and precious hero, guide, soulmate, master, and my everthing died 8 days ago.i have been tormented with regrets that i didn't bring him home from the vet so that he and i could spend the last few days together at home saying goodbye. Instead when the cancer showed in the xray to have spread throughout his stomach and spleen and the only option i was given was to euthanize i couldn't stand to see rocky struggle another minute so i agreed.

I miss Rocky so badly
I feel so terrified and scared to not have him with me physically because he was not only my precious child he was my soulmate, partner and my everything. I rescued rocky. I won't go into that detail because i know he doesn't want to be remembered for what he was in but for what he blossomed into: a strong, courageous, wise, noble, handsome, gracious, regal, brilliant prince. His happiness was my happiness, when rocky was feeling good so then was I. It made my whole world to see him doing good and happy and thats what i lived for and to do

I really need help. I feel like I'm not gonna make it
Can someone or people respond to me with kind and healing words
I really need help right now

Hesista

[moon_beam]

Hi, hesista, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing. Your beloved Rocky is a regal and handsome prince with his lineage of Lab / Ridgeback.

I think part of the struggle that we deal with in our grief journey is training our minds to continue thinking of them in the present tense: "is" instead of "was". Their sweet Living Spirit continues to be with us, and their Spirit is ALIVE. So, therefore, they continue to be an ever-present part of us - - just differently.

I, too, am the "black sheep" of my family when it comes to my beliefs of God's non-human creatures. When I share time with my human family members someone always finds a way to "put me in my place" about my beliefs. I, too, have always felt "estranged" from the human population. The only place I truly feel I can share what is in my heart is here among my friends who truly do understand the incredibly wonderful and beautiful gift God gives to us in our precious and beloved companions. So, hesista, please know YOU are the blessed one - - YOU are the privileged one. It is the people we meet in our lives - - who sometimes share our iives - - and criticize us for our beliefs who are sadly confused.

Hesista, once again please let me add my reassurance along with our wonderful correspondents that you are never alone in your grief adjustment journey. I so do understand how unbearably painful it is to wake up to the new reality that your beloved Rocky is no longer physically present with you. I so do understand the seering stabbing pain that is in your heart, and how incredibly difficult it is to breathe. It is so important that you allow yourself the opportunity to openly grieve for your beloved Rocky - - as you feel appropriate. The tears you cry are literally healing tears. They literally wash away the toxins that build up in your body from the stress of grief. And this is why during our deepest painful grief our tears are so uncontrollable - - because we are literally consumed with the deepest sorrow we will know on this side of eternity, and our bodies are trying to literally wash away the pain. I promise you, hesista, that someday probably when you least expect it you will begin to feel stronger again. You will find yourself thinking of your beloved Rocky and you will find yourself smiling - - truly smiling - - and you will feel your heart fill with the warmth of your many treasured memories - - wrapped in the eternal love of your beloved Rocky.

But this is just going to take time, hesista, one day at a time, one moment at a time. Each of us are here for you, with you, and beside you through every step of your journey. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, hesista, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam