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[Maggie's Mommy]

I am heartbroken! I put my Maggie to sleep on Sunday. I know it's not even been a week but I have never felt this kind of pain before. I don't have children and I am a single person so Maggie was my family. I felt that with her I was a mommy. Now she is gone and my house and heart seems empty. I am now physically ill which I believe is due to lack of sleep and eating. I am not able to work and have called in sick a few days. My job is ok with it so far, partly because I am so physically ill but also because I have been at my company for years and I don't call in. Everyone says this is normal and it will pass but I am not sure I want it to. I don't want to not think of her and I feel guilty when I think of moving on. I just feel as though my heart doesn't beat the same without her.

[moon_beam]

Hi, Maggie's Mommy, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing. From personal experience of a different nature, please let me try to reassure you that it is very wise of you to do what you need to do to help you through your grief adjustment journey rather than have someone else do it for you - - such as removing the bubble wrap that protected your beloved Maggie from harm. It isn't about "closure" - - it is about sharing this with your beloved Maggie. Talk to her as you are doing this - - "my dearest Maggie, I put this up to protect you from harm, but now you don't need it anymore. You are now free of all your physical infirmaties - - you can see again, you can romp again and you are with beloved friends of many people in the company of the angels." She is there with you, Maggie's Mommy, "thank you so much for making sure that my earthly journey with you was happy and safe and loved, mommy. Thank you so much for your eternal love - - I'm still with you - - always and forever. I love you, and I am so happy to have you for my Forever Mom."

The memory box is an excellent idea, and I hope it will bring you comfort and happiness as you prepare it. This is the beginning of a "new normal" - - and it is going to be an adjustment that has many ups and downs, twists and turns and turnarounds - - it is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride. But I promise you, Maggie's Mommy, that eventually the ride will become less painful, and this is what your beloved Maggie wants for you. As the pain eases your heart will be able to embrace the many wonderful and treasured memories you and your beloved Maggie share.

I hope today is being kind to you, Maggie's Mommy. Take it slowly - - if you find that things become too overwhelming then stop. Take it in stages. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Maggie's Mommy, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam