I Don't Know Where To Start, I had to let my baby go on 09/29/11 Options

[nippermom]

I have lost pets before but none have ever been like this. I have cried every day since I let my Nipper go. I was blessed to have her with me for 15 1/2 years. We went through so much together. She was always there by my side. Nipper was the first dog that I raised on my own from 7 weeks of age until the end. She was my total responsibility. I cannot get used to the fact that she won't be coming back. She will never meet me at the door again. I will never hear her jump off of the bed in the morning.

I have already been dealing with depression. Now I have this on top of it. My therapist has been very supportive but there is still so much time that I spend alone. Nipper went very peacefully. When I was holding her and waiting for the vet, she was very calm and relaxed. It was as if she was letting me know that she was ready to go.I cannot put into words how much I miss my baby girl. It feels like the pain will never go away.

I love you Nipper-02/01/96-09/29/11

[moon_beam]

"Although I always knew the day would come and I had done some things to begin to prepare myself, there was no way I could have ever known what it would truly feel like."

Hi, nippermom, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing. I know the shadow box brings you much comfort, and I hope working on organizing your beloved Nipper's pictures for a memory book is also offering you comfort.

Nippermom, there really is no way that we can ever "prepare" ourselves for the time of grieving we experience when our companions precede us to the angels. This is one of the many reasons why this wonderful forum was started - - as a safe place where broken hearts can come together to find comfort, encouragement, and hope as we travel our grief adjustment journeys. It is an honor for me to be a part of this wonderful forum to join my words to our forum friends to offer you comfort, encouragement, and hope as you travel your adjustment journey.

No one will ever take your beloved Nipper's place in your heart and your memories, nippermom. I believe your beloved Nipper is very proud of you for opening your heart and home to a foster furchild who is waiting a new Forever Home.

I hope today is being kind to you, nippermom. Thank you again so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how things are going for you whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[nippermom]

"Although I always knew the day would come and I had done some things to begin to prepare myself, there was no way I could have ever known what it would truly feel like."

Hi, nippermom, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing. I know the shadow box brings you much comfort, and I hope working on organizing your beloved Nipper's pictures for a memory book is also offering you comfort.

Nippermom, there really is no way that we can ever "prepare" ourselves for the time of grieving we experience when our companions precede us to the angels. This is one of the many reasons why this wonderful forum was started - - as a safe place where broken hearts can come together to find comfort, encouragement, and hope as we travel our grief adjustment journeys. It is an honor for me to be a part of this wonderful forum to join my words to our forum friends to offer you comfort, encouragement, and hope as you travel your adjustment journey.

No one will ever take your beloved Nipper's place in your heart and your memories, nippermom. I believe your beloved Nipper is very proud of you for opening your heart and home to a foster furchild who is waiting a new Forever Home.

I hope today is being kind to you, nippermom. Thank you again so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how things are going for you whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

I completed Nipper's picture book and got it back. Wal-Mart's photo department did a great job. I am very pleased with the way it turned out. Christmas Eve was a difficult time since that was always a special time. That was when I gave Nipper her new toy or whatever she was getting for Christmas that year.

I know now why it took me longer than normal to get a foster dog. God wanted to be sure that I had a dog here to comfort me on Christmas Eve. Teddy, my foster dog, received a good adoption application on 12/23/11. His new forever Mom, who I already know and went to school with her sons, will be picking him up to go home on 12/31/11. Teddy was with me through Christmas to comfort me as much as possible. His work here will be finished. I hopefully have taught Teddy that he can trust humans again so he will have an easy transition into his new home. He will be living in the same type of atmosphere as he has been here. God never ceases to amaze me.

I hope everybody had a wonderful Christmas or whatever holiday you celebrate and have a safe and happy 2012.

Peace be with you all,
Nippermom