My Baby Boy Options

[Starlight]

I have been reading the forum for a while, but haven’t posted yet. It’s been just over 2 months since my baby boy was killed, and I’m afraid it isn’t getting any easier. I’ve been trying hard to cope, but seriously it isn’t working.

My beautiful little dog was killed by a poison bait. I’d had him since he was 9 weeks old, and he would have been 8 years old on his next birthday. We rushed him to the vet as soon as we realised something was wrong, but it was too late. He went into awful convulsions in my arms on the way, and was unconscious by the time we got there.

It was an agonizing end for a happy, brave and loving little boy. No animal should ever die that way, and this little boy was my best friend, and the light of my life. If only I’d been more careful and had him on a lead it probably wouldn’t have happened.

I keep going over and over it in my mind, and I can’t stop crying. Please help me.

[corinnajane]

Hi Starlight,

Well, your darling baby boy sounds amazing. It sounds like he knew he was "home" when he was with you, and that he loved you to bits. Gentle, affectionate... What a perfect combination. No wonder you had such a bond together.

I am so sorry that you feel so devastated and like a part of you is missing. Is today any easier? It sounds like your Christmas is going to be very challenging and confronting. Hopefully having your family around will help bring you some comfort.

I have no plans to go anywhere this Christmas. I'm not much of a traveller! I miss my cats too much when I go anywhere. Soppy, I know.

CJ