My Baby Boy Options

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I have been reading the forum for a while, but haven’t posted yet. It’s been just over 2 months since my baby boy was killed, and I’m afraid it isn’t getting any easier. I’ve been trying hard to cope, but seriously it isn’t working.

My beautiful little dog was killed by a poison bait. I’d had him since he was 9 weeks old, and he would have been 8 years old on his next birthday. We rushed him to the vet as soon as we realised something was wrong, but it was too late. He went into awful convulsions in my arms on the way, and was unconscious by the time we got there.

It was an agonizing end for a happy, brave and loving little boy. No animal should ever die that way, and this little boy was my best friend, and the light of my life. If only I’d been more careful and had him on a lead it probably wouldn’t have happened.

I keep going over and over it in my mind, and I can’t stop crying. Please help me.

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Thanks Bobbie. I am so sorry for all your losses, and your precious Trevor most of all.

I thought I would have my little boy with me for such a long time. He was only seven years old, and so fit and healthy. I called him my little sunshine, as he was such a happy little chap, with such a big personality. Even though he died in my arms, I still can't really believe he is gone. Sometimes he still seems so alive to me, and that is the hardest time of all.

Because we were in such a remote area when it happened, I couldn't fly his little body home for burial, and had to have him sent by road to the closest major city for cremation. When I picked up his ashes I completely lost it - all that love and life reduced to just nothing was almost more than I could bear.

I have lost people who I loved, and of course I grieved for them. It seems wrong, but losing my baby boy has been so much harder. He was my darling and my joy, and the light of my life, and I seriously don't know how I can go on without him.

Love
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