I Don't Know Where To Start, I had to let my baby go on 09/29/11 Options

[nippermom]

I have lost pets before but none have ever been like this. I have cried every day since I let my Nipper go. I was blessed to have her with me for 15 1/2 years. We went through so much together. She was always there by my side. Nipper was the first dog that I raised on my own from 7 weeks of age until the end. She was my total responsibility. I cannot get used to the fact that she won't be coming back. She will never meet me at the door again. I will never hear her jump off of the bed in the morning.

I have already been dealing with depression. Now I have this on top of it. My therapist has been very supportive but there is still so much time that I spend alone. Nipper went very peacefully. When I was holding her and waiting for the vet, she was very calm and relaxed. It was as if she was letting me know that she was ready to go.I cannot put into words how much I miss my baby girl. It feels like the pain will never go away.

I love you Nipper-02/01/96-09/29/11

[nippermom]

The difficult days come further apart now but there are times when the tears still fall. The distraction of having a little foster dog in the house is helpful but he could never take Nipper's place. I completed the shadow box with the pictures I had done of Nipper and I last fall, a couple of baby pictures, and her collar. I have been working on organizing the pictures of Nipper on my computer so I can have them printed in a memory book. I may have said it in a previous post but I appreciate this forum very much. It is so helpful to be able to share my feelings with others who understand. Although I always knew the day would come and I had done some things to begin to prepare myself, there was no way I could have ever known what it would truly feel like.

Having experienced this loss, I have been able to offer words of comfort to others around me that have either recently gone through a similar loss or are approaching the difficult time of making the decision of when it is time to let their baby go.

I hope all of you had a safe and enjoyable Thanksgiving.

Peace be with you all,
Nippermom