I Don't Know Where To Start, I had to let my baby go on 09/29/11 Options

[nippermom]

I have lost pets before but none have ever been like this. I have cried every day since I let my Nipper go. I was blessed to have her with me for 15 1/2 years. We went through so much together. She was always there by my side. Nipper was the first dog that I raised on my own from 7 weeks of age until the end. She was my total responsibility. I cannot get used to the fact that she won't be coming back. She will never meet me at the door again. I will never hear her jump off of the bed in the morning.

I have already been dealing with depression. Now I have this on top of it. My therapist has been very supportive but there is still so much time that I spend alone. Nipper went very peacefully. When I was holding her and waiting for the vet, she was very calm and relaxed. It was as if she was letting me know that she was ready to go.I cannot put into words how much I miss my baby girl. It feels like the pain will never go away.

I love you Nipper-02/01/96-09/29/11

[Gretta's Mom]

Hello Nippermom

Has your heart moved out of the paralyzing "shock and awe" phase? Maybe you're in the "carrying around a huge cement block" time? The picture of Nipper was incredible - especially his eyes. He's DEFINITELY you spirit-dog! You mentioned a couple of time putting Nipper's things away or giving them to a humane society. I know everyone is different, and if it's what YOU need to do, then "carry on" - as they say. But just in case you're feeling ANY pressure to do that, remember it's coming from the outside - and whatever you want to keep around, in sight, to remind you of Nipper, please feel completely free to do that. I kept Gretta's metal bowls, her snowsuits (that I velcroed into a sort of pillow to sleep on the first night I spent alone). Nipper's Mom - my heart goes out to you. You're so new on the grief path and there is so much ahead of you. Your 1999 experience has helped you realize that after a LONG time, your heart finds some comfort. I hope that's true - for you - for me - and for everyone who has separated from a soul-mate.

Please keep in touch.

Gretta's mom