I Don't Know Where To Start, I had to let my baby go on 09/29/11 Options

[nippermom]

I have lost pets before but none have ever been like this. I have cried every day since I let my Nipper go. I was blessed to have her with me for 15 1/2 years. We went through so much together. She was always there by my side. Nipper was the first dog that I raised on my own from 7 weeks of age until the end. She was my total responsibility. I cannot get used to the fact that she won't be coming back. She will never meet me at the door again. I will never hear her jump off of the bed in the morning.

I have already been dealing with depression. Now I have this on top of it. My therapist has been very supportive but there is still so much time that I spend alone. Nipper went very peacefully. When I was holding her and waiting for the vet, she was very calm and relaxed. It was as if she was letting me know that she was ready to go.I cannot put into words how much I miss my baby girl. It feels like the pain will never go away.

I love you Nipper-02/01/96-09/29/11

[nippermom]

Thank you all so much for sharing your experiences which are mirror images of what I am now experiencing. It is helpful to hear from others who have felt the same pain. The assurance that the pain will ease in time and allow me to move forward. At this time I can't imagine having another dog of my own. I am considering fostering dogs from my local humane society but do not feel I am ready to do that yet either. I am slowly moving Nipper's things out of the house or into storage. It helps having a humane society that I work with. I can pass some of Nipper's belongings on to dogs that haven't been so fortunate. I know everything will be appreciated and useful.

Thank you again for all of your words of support.

Nippermom

[nippermom]

I have to admit I have never heard our pets described exactly as Gretta's Mom describes them but it makes perfect sense. When I think back to when I chose Nipper from those 5 little puppies, it wasn't a difficult decision at all. It was as though we were meant to be together and always felt like we had a special connection right up to the end. We could always sense the way the other was feeling and communicate without making a noise. I know Nipper will be waiting for me. I sent her ahead to be with a Sheltie that she knew when she was younger. It still hurts so much with her gone. There are still a few of her things that I haven't put away yet. It doesn't seem like she has been gone as long as she has already. My little chinchilla, Benmont, is doing his best to comfort me. My friends through the humane society would understand what I am feeling but they have their duties at the shelter to keep up with. I am very thankful that I found this website. A place where other people truly understand the special relationship between a human and a dog. As I have seen before, it is no accident that dog is God spelled backwards. They are such wonderful beings. Thank you all again for your ongoing support during this difficult time. "Nippermom"

Thank you all so much for sharing your experiences which are mirror images of what I am now experiencing. It is helpful to hear from others who have felt the same pain. The assurance that the pain will ease in time and allow me to move forward. At this time I can't imagine having another dog of my own. I am considering fostering dogs from my local humane society but do not feel I am ready to do that yet either. I am slowly moving Nipper's things out of the house or into storage. It helps having a humane society that I work with. I can pass some of Nipper's belongings on to dogs that haven't been so fortunate. I know everything will be appreciated and useful.

Thank you again for all of your words of support.

Nippermom

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