My Little Molls Options

[Molls825]

Yesterday my boyfriend and I made the tough decision to put our cat Molly to sleep. It was one of the hardest decisions I had to make in my life. It all happned so quickly. This past Monday we took her to the vet because we knew someething was wrong with her. Her belly had gotten really big and we could see and feel her spine. We thought that she just had a bad case of worms because I brought home a kitten from the shelter I volunteer at and he had worms. When we got to the vet they wanted to test for feline lukemia but that came back negative. The next step was to take a full blood sample and thats what told us what was wrong with her. She was dignosed with auto immune disease...her immune system was basically attacking itself. Her white blood cells were attacking her red blood cells. The vet told us the prognosis wasn't good, she had a 50/50 chance of survival if we gave her meds. We decided that we had to give the meds a chance and brought her home. By Wednesday she was not looking any better, so I made an appointment to bring her back the next day. She had lost 2 lbs in 3 days, so she was down to 5 lbs and also lost more red blood cells. At that point she was very dehydrated and wasn't eating, so the vet gave us the options of force feeding her, doing a blood transfusion or putting her to sleep. We couldn't afford the blood transfusion and she couldn't keep food down...so unfortunatey that left us with putting her to sleep. We knew she was really suffering and didn'y look good at all. We sadly decided to put her to sleep The vet brought her in so we could see her one last time. I just hugged her and petted her and didn't want to let her go. I decided that it would be too hard to be in the room with her when they put her sleep and my boyfriend felt the same way. That was one of my biggest regrets. I REALLy wish one of us was with her. I want to go back to yesterday just so I could be there when she went. I feel aweful that she was alone...she was only 2 years old so she was still little. I keep picturing her little sad, sick face in my head...I am having a really hard time with all of this. The only time I was not upset since it happened was today at work because I kept busy but now that I am home and the Molls was not here to greet me at the door I am crying all over again. I just wish I could see her one last time and to be with her in her final moments

[moon_beam]

Hi, Molls, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Molly. Losing a beloved companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. Euthanasia is the last gift of love we can give to our companions at great sacrifice to ourselves so that they can be healed to their former youthfulness in the company of the angels.

Molls, I hope you will be able to find some peace in your heart about not being with your beloved Molly at the time of the euthanasia process. There is no "wrong" decision. Your beloved Molly knows you did everything in your power to try to help her feel better, and she knows you would move heaven and earth or walk over hot burning coals or roiling lava to give her a happy, healthy earthly journey. Your beloved Molly is eternally grateful to you for your loving care during her earthly journey, and her heart is filled with deepest and eternal gratitude for making the hardest decision you will ever make on this side of eternity - - the decision to mercifully ease her transition journey to the angels. I assure you your love for her lifted her to the arms of the angels where she is in the company of each of our beloved companions helping her to settle in while she patiently waits for your appropriate time to join her in eternal joy.

But for now, and for awhile yet to come, you are faced with one of the hardest experiences you will know on this side of eternity: adjusting your earthly journey to the physical absence of your beloved Molly. This is not an easy transition to make, for it is filled with many ups and downs, twists and turns, and turnarounds. It is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride.

Molls, unfortunately there is no easy way through this grief journey. It can only be traveled one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time. And I know right now there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the seering pain of loss that you are feeling in your broken, shattered heart. One of the many things you must remember is that you are never alone during your journey. Each of us here do understand what you are going through, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.

Molls, thank you so very much for sharing your beloved Molly with us. Perhaps sometime you will be feel up to posting a picture(s) of your beloved Molly - - but only if / when you want to. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Molls, and am looking forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam