Abbey My Beautiful Girl Options

[TAK]

Where to start....
It has been 5 days and 21 hours since Abbey has passed away. I feel so lost, like my heart was torn out of my chest, at some moments I can not breath. When her and I were together nothing else seemed to matter. We did everything together, whether it was bird watching or hanging out on the couch. Abbey could just look at me and I knew what she wanted, whether it was a walk or dinner. She was an exceptional girl, she brought the whole family together even in her dying hours the vets said it was a pleasure to of met her. I promised her that I would not let her suffer because that would of been for my benefit not hers. So I let her go. If I would of only presisted with the vet that something was wrong, my beautiful girl would be here.
I fell so alone with out Abbey even though we have Dollie, who is on the long term babysitting program, sadly and worried now, her owner could come back for her. Also Samatha, our cat who was adopted to keep Abbey company, which Abbey ended up babysitting over the years. Yes those two are owesome, loved dearly but without Abbey the world seems an extremely sad place.
I just do not know how to live without her, I cry myself to sleep and awake in tears. All I think about is her. My husband who has been very sad also, said to me the other day that he knew how much I loved Abbey, that is she would of needed a kidney I would not think twice. He is so right.
Now what.....
Theresa

[moon_beam]

Hi, Theresa, just stopping by to say hello. I hope in time you will feel more comfortable when you have "experiences" of feeling or "seeing" Abbey's presence. When I was younger experiences like that after one of my furkids joined the angels was a bit unsettling at first, but I guess now that I'm much older I find them comforting.

I hope this weekend is treating you kindly, Theresa. Please know you and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[TAK]

Hi Moon_Beam,
Thanks for checking in. i do feel a bit better about my experiences. Saturday when i went into the bedroom I could smell Abbey, it did make me feel better that she is still around. I just miss her so much, I think about her all time and wish she was here. The hardest times are still at night when I go to sleep and when I wake up. But also anything I do for the first time since she passed away. We went out of town and coming back I was sad because this was the first time she would not be there when we picked all of them up from my niece's. It was conforting which may sound terrible, that my niece who loves Dollie and Samantha, mentioned that Abbey was still her favourite. I know how she feels, I would do anything for my two munchkins but Abbey was the first born and my favorite. I was, when she was here, very concious of not showing any favoritism between them, that would be mean. It is hard to beleive Saturday was six weeks since she was last here. There are going to be so many times that I will say since she was last here.
thanks again for you thoughts Theresa

Hi, Theresa, just stopping by to say hello. I hope in time you will feel more comfortable when you have "experiences" of feeling or "seeing" Abbey's presence. When I was younger experiences like that after one of my furkids joined the angels was a bit unsettling at first, but I guess now that I'm much older I find them comforting.

I hope this weekend is treating you kindly, Theresa. Please know you and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam