Abbey My Beautiful Girl Options

[TAK]

Where to start....
It has been 5 days and 21 hours since Abbey has passed away. I feel so lost, like my heart was torn out of my chest, at some moments I can not breath. When her and I were together nothing else seemed to matter. We did everything together, whether it was bird watching or hanging out on the couch. Abbey could just look at me and I knew what she wanted, whether it was a walk or dinner. She was an exceptional girl, she brought the whole family together even in her dying hours the vets said it was a pleasure to of met her. I promised her that I would not let her suffer because that would of been for my benefit not hers. So I let her go. If I would of only presisted with the vet that something was wrong, my beautiful girl would be here.
I fell so alone with out Abbey even though we have Dollie, who is on the long term babysitting program, sadly and worried now, her owner could come back for her. Also Samatha, our cat who was adopted to keep Abbey company, which Abbey ended up babysitting over the years. Yes those two are owesome, loved dearly but without Abbey the world seems an extremely sad place.
I just do not know how to live without her, I cry myself to sleep and awake in tears. All I think about is her. My husband who has been very sad also, said to me the other day that he knew how much I loved Abbey, that is she would of needed a kidney I would not think twice. He is so right.
Now what.....
Theresa

[Abby's Mom]

Hi TAK,

Your post spoke to me. I lost my beloved little dog of 16 1/2 years, Abby, on 5/4/11. It's been almost two months and there are times when I am still overcome with the loss and this huge hole in my heart. Those first few days, hell, weeks were gut wrenching but I can tell you that it does get easier. I have learned that we never get over a loss such as this. They were our babies and our 4-legged, furry soulmates. But we do learn to live in our new reality.

A week and a half ago I decided to rescue a sweet little puppy who needed a loving home. If you'd told me in those first few days that I'd be doing this so soon after losing my precious little girl, I would have said you were nuts. But I have to tell you that my new baby, Bailey, has been a blessing in disguise. I will always, always long for the day when I am reunited with my Abby, but for now I am blessed to be sharing my earthly journey with Bailey. I tell her about her big sister all the time. I still talk to Abby's urn and I still can't move the shrine I built for her from my dining room table. I still have her photo as my cell phone wallpaper and I still ride around in the car with her little blanket she always sat on...it's still full of her hair. At first I cried every single day, sometimes multiple times a day but with time the tears became less and less. Don't get me wrong, I am still brought to tears at times when I think of a special memory or when Bailey does something that is so Abby. But I now also find joy in talking about happier times with my baby and the amazing bond we shared.

My heart goes out to you in the most profound way and I hope you find some peace very soon.

Abby's and Bailey's Mom