Abbey My Beautiful Girl Options

[TAK]

Where to start....
It has been 5 days and 21 hours since Abbey has passed away. I feel so lost, like my heart was torn out of my chest, at some moments I can not breath. When her and I were together nothing else seemed to matter. We did everything together, whether it was bird watching or hanging out on the couch. Abbey could just look at me and I knew what she wanted, whether it was a walk or dinner. She was an exceptional girl, she brought the whole family together even in her dying hours the vets said it was a pleasure to of met her. I promised her that I would not let her suffer because that would of been for my benefit not hers. So I let her go. If I would of only presisted with the vet that something was wrong, my beautiful girl would be here.
I fell so alone with out Abbey even though we have Dollie, who is on the long term babysitting program, sadly and worried now, her owner could come back for her. Also Samatha, our cat who was adopted to keep Abbey company, which Abbey ended up babysitting over the years. Yes those two are owesome, loved dearly but without Abbey the world seems an extremely sad place.
I just do not know how to live without her, I cry myself to sleep and awake in tears. All I think about is her. My husband who has been very sad also, said to me the other day that he knew how much I loved Abbey, that is she would of needed a kidney I would not think twice. He is so right.
Now what.....
Theresa

[Gretta's Mom]

Hello TAK

Yes, evenings and mornings are the hardest. That's when we spent the most time with our fur-babies. During the day we either had to work or else are doing other things away from home. Those are the two times when all those thoughts of "She's not here" and "Last week when we were doing this, she was here" and "Oh if only I could see her face and pet her head just one more time" come rushing in to crush our hearts. It's normal but OH does it HURT!

Maybe you don't have to keep such a stiff upper lip for Dollie and Samantha. Animals are SO much smarter and sensitive and understanding than we humans. Yes, they're probably sad, like you are, but they love you and I'm sure are trying to comfort you. They can sense what's going on - almost like they're psychic. Tom's Dad talks about this with his new kitten Tang and I KNOW my Rufus (the "little brother" Gretta sent me about a month after she went home) is psychic. Every time I write on this site or write a letter to gretta or write anything sad and start crying - no matter HOW silent - he lumbers up (he's a 100+ 8 year old black lab/newfie) and stuicks his nose between me and the computer and doesn't give up until I sign off. My sister, who has always had male c-o-c-k-e-r spaniels, says this is the "boy dog" way - clumsy but heartfelt. Dollie and Samantha may be trying to comfort you because, as you have experienced, we get A LOT more love back from our babies than we could EVER give them.

I'm pretty computer dumb and was never able to follow either the instructions on the site or another site that can shrink picture files to an acceptable site - Peggy's Human sent me these instructions and I had to have her actually do it for me, since I couldn't make the splashup site work either. It's tough to be so ignorant ...

here are the instructions the site Admin has posted to help if your pics are larger than the site will allow: http://www.splashup.com/splashup/ go to File, open image, browse, select a photo, go to IMAGE MENU, and type in image size. then when you choose to save it lets you choose the quality (which determines file size).

It's a day by day road, Cheryl. I'm with you all the way.

Gretta's mom