Abbey My Beautiful Girl Options

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Where to start....
It has been 5 days and 21 hours since Abbey has passed away. I feel so lost, like my heart was torn out of my chest, at some moments I can not breath. When her and I were together nothing else seemed to matter. We did everything together, whether it was bird watching or hanging out on the couch. Abbey could just look at me and I knew what she wanted, whether it was a walk or dinner. She was an exceptional girl, she brought the whole family together even in her dying hours the vets said it was a pleasure to of met her. I promised her that I would not let her suffer because that would of been for my benefit not hers. So I let her go. If I would of only presisted with the vet that something was wrong, my beautiful girl would be here.
I fell so alone with out Abbey even though we have Dollie, who is on the long term babysitting program, sadly and worried now, her owner could come back for her. Also Samatha, our cat who was adopted to keep Abbey company, which Abbey ended up babysitting over the years. Yes those two are owesome, loved dearly but without Abbey the world seems an extremely sad place.
I just do not know how to live without her, I cry myself to sleep and awake in tears. All I think about is her. My husband who has been very sad also, said to me the other day that he knew how much I loved Abbey, that is she would of needed a kidney I would not think twice. He is so right.
Now what.....
Theresa