One Year... Options

[My heart Cooper]

Like so many others who have posted this before, tomorrow will be one year since I lost my beautiful baby, Cooper. My little love. I miss you so much. You were my best friend for five and a half years. It used to pain me to leave you for 8 or 9 hours every day for work. I never imagined an entire year going by without seeing that beautiful little face, your tiny pink nose, your furry little toes or your beautiful white flowing tail. How I miss that little bark and playing ball constantly. I know it was your favorite. You were gone so suddenly. There was no time to say goodbye. I knew when that phone rang that something awful had happened. The only thing that helps is that I know that, wherever you are, you knew every day how much you were loved and how much you're still loved. No one can take your place in our hearts. You were the most special little boy. But a year later we are doing ok. Rudy and Dori bring love and happiness to our lives. They could never replace you but they're special in their own ways. Mommy misses you little buddy and I hope you're happy and ok, wherever you may be. We miss you every moment of every day and I pray I will see you again one day. That's my biggest fear - never seeing that beautiful face again. I try to have faith that I will. I love you And miss you so unbelievably much. Good night my boy, mommy.