Now Leopold Is Missing!, My Bengal Cat Options

[ladywolf]

Sigh. Just as I was learning to love the little dickens ALMOST as much as I loved Ladywolf and Poppers, he has disappeared. It's only been four days, but he was a homeboy. An outdoor cat in charge of maintaining order in the "hood", but he never left his own and the neighbors' properties.

The empty feeling is indescribable; i'm sure others in this section have done a far better job that I would. In fact, I who had so many words when Poppers and then Ladywolf were dying, don't even know what to say now. I feel like my heart is lying in a gutter somewhere, just tossed away.

This is very, very hard. I just lost Ladywolf last June. Words of comfort and encouragement will be much appreciated. By the way, Leopold was neutered months ago now.

Love to everyone--Margi/Ladywolf

[ladywolf]

Dear Peggy (I'm sorry, I forgot to mention your name above), Moon_beam and Cheryl and everyone--

You know, I feel very strongly that Leopold is alive and well myself--in fact, I feel that he is living somewhere on my very own road, which is a short one. I haven't canvassed all the neighbors, though I have a few. Some of the houses are sort of imposing in that they have locked gates or long, long driveways--these places I've not had the courage to approach. But apparently behind one of those locked gates lives someone who takes in stray cats, and has a lot of them. There is no mailbox, so I guess I'll leave a note attached to the gate. I think Leopold is right on John Adams Road. I just FEEL him so strongly when I go out walking and looking, which I confess I am getting lax about doing by now.

it's so hard to grieve in a situation like this one. One doesn't even know WHETHER to grieve or not, since Leopold's fate is unknown. I'll start to cry, and then I'll get filled with determination all over again to "will" him to come back to his rightful home with me. Obviously, I can't "will him" to do anything, but I can try to hang on to the hope, which some non-animal people tell me it's time to let go of now. Bless this forum as a place where I can let it all hang out and know that I'll be supported. I feel slightly insane about all of this by now. It's just so damned sad.

Big Hugs from Margi and Spiritwolf