Rufus Options

[Debboop]

Well I discovered this site by chance and after viewing the different posts thought I would register as its a comfort and relief to no I am not alone.
I had Rufus for almost 16 years, he had been everywhere with me and my husband and was also a GREAT companian for me as my husband works away alot. We were rather lucky with him as he never really got ill. As he was getting older we noticed a change and gave him Devils Claw, Glucosomine & Chrondrontin for his joints, these helped him a great deal. However since Christmas he had become very unsettled and disorientated so we took him to the vets in Jan and they told us to try Activat for brain aging in dogs but after trying them he didn`t change.
A few times I came home from work and found him on the floor not being able to get up and he had weed. I even went as far as buying dog shoes so he could grip the tiles and laminate and this never seemed to happen again.
Last week Tues 16th March I came home and took him for his walk (he always wanted to go out)when I got to the end of the road he went to have a poo and then collapsed. I was hysterical and managed to get him home, I phoned my husband who said to phone the vets, I told the vet on the phone I thought it was his time and they fitted him in. When we got there the vet said it wasn`t his legs that were bad but his spine and to try these painkillers. I wasn`t too sure as I myself had resigned to the fact that it was his time, but the vet said try them. So thats what we did, thinking there was hope for our "baby". We gave him half a tablet and within a a couple of hours saw his back lift and he perked up. The following day(Wed) I was sad as my husband had to go away for 2 weeks but I thought at least I had Rufus. I got home from work the same day and Rufus was collapsed on the floor having pood and weed and was shaking, this broke my heart. I got him up and got him outside, I bathed him and he perked up so the following morning (Thur) I went to work again but something in my mind told me things weren`t right. My boss told me to go home and be with him as I was really upset. I got home and he was asleep were I had left him and then when I woke him he went outside for a wee but didn`t seem himself so I phoned the vets who said take him in. On arrival at the vets he collapsed in the waiting room and pood, when we were called through he collapsed again and that is when the vet said he thought it was time. OMG I have never been so upset in my life, I felt so alone (as hubby was away)I lay on the floor with Rufus stroking him, kissing him telling him how much me and his dad loved him, telling him he was off to a better place and he wouldn`t be in pain anymore. He never even put up a fight he just lay there then let out a sigh as if of relief and then he was gone. The vet left me with him for about 10mins and I fixed his ears and eyes then told the vet he was clean as I had bathed him. As I got to the door I turned back and saw him lying on the floor so went back to him for one more stroke. I really don`t know how I have got through the last week. I think of him constantly.
Today I have picked up his ashes and brought him home to be back were he belongs, I feel a sense of relief him being back here with me. But I still question as to why the vet didn`t end his suffering on the Tuesday and then I get to thinking if only I had had him for one more day. All kinds of things are going through my mind. I never thought I would feel so bad.
I`m sorry for rambling on but just feel I need to write it all down
RIP Rufus we`ll never ever forget you love mum and dad ************

[moon_beam]

Hi, Debboop, the anniversaries are always a challenge, including the one year anniversary. When it arrives it seems so hard to believe that a year has gone by - - that we have "survived" a year - - "survived" the deep sorrow that entrenched our hearts - - "survived" the deepest pain that we can ever know on this side of eternity.

It doesn't matter if it's been one minute, one hour, one day, one month, one year - - or fifty years - - our beloved companions are forever in our hearts and memories, for the love bond we have with them is eternal - - they are always a heartbeat close to us.

Debboop, thank you so much for sharing your "Angelversary" of Rufus with us. Even when we have other beloved companions in our homes this does not diminish the love in our hearts for our beloved companions who are with the angels. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Debboop, and look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Debboop]

Hi, Debboop, the anniversaries are always a challenge, including the one year anniversary. When it arrives it seems so hard to believe that a year has gone by - - that we have "survived" a year - - "survived" the deep sorrow that entrenched our hearts - - "survived" the deepest pain that we can ever know on this side of eternity.

It doesn't matter if it's been one minute, one hour, one day, one month, one year - - or fifty years - - our beloved companions are forever in our hearts and memories, for the love bond we have with them is eternal - - they are always a heartbeat close to us.

Debboop, thank you so much for sharing your "Angelversary" of Rufus with us. Even when we have other beloved companions in our homes this does not diminish the love in our hearts for our beloved companions who are with the angels. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Debboop, and look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Thank you very much it means alot.
The day wasn`t as bad as I thought it would be, I cried a few times through the day but I have done everyday since has gone. It is very hard but it does help to know that we are not alone. God Bless x