A "little" Dilemma Options

[rallytally7]

Well, I have posted here about my boy Brutus dying. It has been 6 weeks now since the terrible tragedy. I also posted that he was going to be a daddy and I was thinking out keeping a pup....well the pups were born and only one male is left. The other 3 males unfortunately died right after birth.

I had gotten some wonderfula advice from several of you on the message board about possibly keeping a puppy of my wonderful Brutus. I am now struggling with something different..."What if the puppy doesn't look ANYTHING like my Brutus?" I wanted a puppy that has at least some of the same features as my boy. What if that doesn't happen?

Maybe the one boy that survived is a "sign" from Brutus that I AM to actually keep this little boy of his? I don't know? I am kind of rambling at the moment. Please forgive the rambling thoughts. I am very confused. He is precious though and looks dark in color as his dad.

Confused,
Thanks.

[rallytally7]

Thanks everyone for the input. I know for a fact that I want another puppy, I am just not sure if this one is the right one or if I should get one from someone or somewhere else.

Yes, I do want one that has at least "some" of the same physical characteristics as my boy Brutus, but definitely want it to be it's own personality. I am afraid actually, what if I can't love him like I loved Brutus? What if I raise him and I am disappointed? What if? These are questions I keep asking myself because my boy was trained EXACTLY how I wanted him. He was perfect in my eyes. I believe these questions would be in my mind no matter how much time has passed or no matter what furchild I decide to get. Brutus was the first dog that I ever had that would listen and I could let roam around and he would stay near me. So I was so attached and in love.

I have my Huskies and they are trained as well but they run away being the breed they are...they are more independent. So, keeping this furbaby is making me scared!

Is this a normal feeling??????