Sudden Death Of My Little Girl Options

[JoanneL]

I am very new here as I just registered last night. I wrote a new topic post but now I can't find it on the site so I am trying again. My husband took our 2 little Schnoodles out for their morning walk on Monday and a few minutes later I got his frantic call. Our little girl had gotten off her leash, run into the street and was hit and killed by a car. We took her to the ER even though we knew she was gone. I can't remember ever being so hysterical in my life. I have cried and wailed for the last 4 days.
I am so glad I found this site last night and that all of you are out there. It is so lonely trying to go through this pain. My husband and I are not really able to talk much about it yet. I know he is replaying the scene in his head and always will. We have our little boy, her brother, and he is trying to figure out why everything has changed.
Friends have said we should think to the future about getting another dog but right now all I can think about is my Zoe and the fact that I will never hold her again or get those sweet kisses from her when I get home from work at night.

[JoanneL]

Again thank you all for being here for me.
I had another very bad day at work yesterday. Someone will stop by my desk to offer sympathy and I start crying again. Today I spent part of the day with my daughter and very young granddaughters so I was distracted somewhat. There are so many times now that I look for her where she would have been in the house or the yard with her brother and it hits me again that she is gone forever. She was just so sweet and used to sit on my lap in the evening while we watched TV after dinner. There is such an empty feeling now that she is not here with me.
I know taking on a puppy will be a massive amount of work but I do believe very therapeutic for my husband and me. I hope that Zack will enjoy having a baby "brother".
It really is exhausting crying and missing Zoe so much. I think the horrible dark, gray weather does not help and being stranded last week in the storm really wore me out.
Going to try to get some sleep so I can get up early and venture out in the dark, cold morning. I am so ready to retire but can't quite yet.

[Juturna]

Again thank you all for being here for me.
I had another very bad day at work yesterday. Someone will stop by my desk to offer sympathy and I start crying again. Today I spent part of the day with my daughter and very young granddaughters so I was distracted somewhat. There are so many times now that I look for her where she would have been in the house or the yard with her brother and it hits me again that she is gone forever. She was just so sweet and used to sit on my lap in the evening while we watched TV after dinner. There is such an empty feeling now that she is not here with me.
I know taking on a puppy will be a massive amount of work but I do believe very therapeutic for my husband and me. I hope that Zack will enjoy having a baby "brother".
It really is exhausting crying and missing Zoe so much. I think the horrible dark, gray weather does not help and being stranded last week in the storm really wore me out.
Going to try to get some sleep so I can get up early and venture out in the dark, cold morning. I am so ready to retire but can't quite yet.

Hi Joanne,

I related to your looking for your precious Zoe as I am still, at times, looking for my Victoria. And I totally understand that empty feeling. Grieving is exhausting. I hope you have been sleeping alittle better.

Sometimes we need distractions, especially when the grief feels so intense. And yes, the weather is not helping.

Hope tomorrow is a peaceful day for you. Please know that we are here for you.
With healing thoughts and hugs,
Juturna