My Precious Baby Girl Options

[rainbohdi]

I am new here and not sure if is ok for me to be posting this so soon, but I guess someone will tell me if it's not.

I also don't know if it's ok to say what happened to her because it was so very awful and people might find it too hard to read, perhaps someone could tell me about that too.

I have supportive friends and they are all devastated that she is gone, even moreso because of how she went.

I couldn't have human babies so she was my one and only baby girl and my most precious love. She was 15 but still so agile and full of life and she neither acted nor looked her age. She loved me, her other people and life so very deeply. She made people smile every day, from her extended family to total strangers out on her walks. Even people who'd say they weren't dog people seemed to make an exception for her.

I know I have to go on, but it has been me and her for so long now that I don't know how to be just me. Every second of each day I have to fight the urge to curl up in a corner and die. I just miss her so badly it feels like every cell in my body is distressed, there is an ache and an emptiness I think will be there forever.

I couldn't save my sweet little girl, she trusted me to keep her safe and cared for and I just couldn't keep her safe this one time she needed it more than ever.

I hope everyone else suffering the pain of the loss of their babies is as ok as anyone can be at a time like this.

rb

[moon_beam]

Hi, Rainbohdi, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing today. We are here together - - there are no strangers here, for we share a common friendship - - the wonderful love bonds we have with our beloved companions, and through them we meet here to share what is in our hearts.

Sleep deprivation adds to the stress of grief, so it is important that you get some restful sleep, Rainbohdi. This is important for your health, and to give your body the strength it needs to endure this grief journey. If the medication your doctor has given you isn't helping you, then I would like to encourage you to give him / her a call so that he / she can give you a different medication to try. Sleep deprivation can also take a toll on your immune system leaving you more susceptible to colds, flus, that can have complications. So, please talk to your doctor again if the medications you currently have do not work for you. It is also important that you eat something and drink fluids - - even if it's just soup broth - - your body needs this in order to endure the stress of grief. Please understand I'm not trying to tell you what to do. For different reasons I do understand the horrible impact of trauma you are going through. I know what it's like to have to force myself to eat even though I had no appetite and being afraid to sleep because of the nightmares. I just want you to know that I do very well understand what you're feeling, and am just trying to offer you encouragement that I hope will help you.

This grief journey is a very difficult adjustment to the physical loss of our beloved companions - - both physically and emotionally. Scientific studies prove that every time they touch us, rub against us, they are leaving a physical chemical on us that imprints us as belonging to them. When they are no longer physically with us, our bodies do go through a painful withdrawal from this physical contact. The ache that is in our hearts is real, Rainbohdi, for our hearts literally ache to feel our beloved companions' sweet physical bodies close to us.

Rainbohdi, our beloved companions give to us their unconditional love and undivided attention. With them we do not have to put on a "public face" to win their acceptance. You do not have put on a "public face" here either, Rainbhodhi. Each of us here understands what it is like to not be able to rely on some people who are the closest to us and who we thought would be our foremost source of comfort in our moment of need. So please know we are here for you, with you, and beside you, Rainbohdi.

I hope in some way what I have shared with you will be a source of comfort and encouragement to you, Rainbohdi. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and will look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam