My Sweet Spooky 5/17/97-12/23/10 Options

[Christina R.]

I lost my sweet dog Spooky 48 hours ago and I don't know what to do with myself. She was amazing and my constant companion for 13 1/2 years. I am so utterly pained right now. I'm just broken ....

The pain seems to get worse and my sobs seem to get louder ... I can't believe this has happened.

My sweet little girl was a Chihuahua/Min Pin mix and we were attached at the hip. I was her person ... and she let everyone know that. She's weathered so many storms with me and given me so much love and comfort - it's hard to fathom my world without her in it.

I had to have back surgery two months ago and have been laid up in bed ever since and she happily stayed by my side night and day. Unexpectedly, two and a half weeks ago she started having trouble walking. I've been living with my parents for the past 2 1/2 years, going back to school to start a new life for myself ... and when Spooky's problems started, I had to ask for help to get her in and out of the bed. It was torture watching my baby girl struggling to walk and not be able to help her. Torture. My brother, her veterinarian, thought there she might have an infection in her spine, but every antibiotic we tried didn't help. Her condition declined so fast, it was awful. This week she couldn't walk at all and I prayed she would get better ... but it didn't happen. I cannot express the agonizing frustration I experienced not being able to lift her off the ground ... my stupid back.

Her last day here, my poor little girl was unable to walk, she could only sit up for a few minutes at a time, and she wouldn't eat and couldn't get her tongue to work right - just drinking was a chore. My little girl ... I know she didn't understand what was happening to her - she looked so scared every time she fell over. My brother thinks little Spooky had some sort of tumor in her brain that was causing her to lose her motor function. He told me I would know when it was time to let her go ... and I did. 48 hours ago, I gave my sweet baby girl the gift of peace and freedom from her failing body.

I'm just so broken up about it. I miss her so much and the loss is tremendous. I feel like a whole has been punched through my world and I'm in pieces.

I'm broken and feel so alone. How do I move on from this when I can't breath without thinking of her.

[JoanneL]

Christina,
I just wanted to add my support and a cyber hug to you. I have written about the sudden loss of my little girl 2 weeks ago and how I have been crying day and night so I can understand where you are. Your little Spooky was adorable.
How is your back. By conicidence I was in bed with my bad back the morning my husband took our little dogs out for their walk and 5 minutes later, Zoe was dead. I hardly got out of bed for the next 4 days. Thankfully, I did not need surgery but have chronic back pain from a car accident almost 2 years ago.
Just wanted to see how you are feeling physically and emotionally. Tomorrow is the 25th of Jan and I will be thinking of you.
Joanne