Sudden Death Of My Little Girl Options

[JoanneL]

I am very new here as I just registered last night. I wrote a new topic post but now I can't find it on the site so I am trying again. My husband took our 2 little Schnoodles out for their morning walk on Monday and a few minutes later I got his frantic call. Our little girl had gotten off her leash, run into the street and was hit and killed by a car. We took her to the ER even though we knew she was gone. I can't remember ever being so hysterical in my life. I have cried and wailed for the last 4 days.
I am so glad I found this site last night and that all of you are out there. It is so lonely trying to go through this pain. My husband and I are not really able to talk much about it yet. I know he is replaying the scene in his head and always will. We have our little boy, her brother, and he is trying to figure out why everything has changed.
Friends have said we should think to the future about getting another dog but right now all I can think about is my Zoe and the fact that I will never hold her again or get those sweet kisses from her when I get home from work at night.

[JoanneL]

MoonBeam-thank you so much for all of your support, and to everyone else here. I know I will be visiting this site for a long time to come. I am still crying day and night over the sudden loss of my little Zoe.
I have been checking my breeder's site from time to time just to keep up with her and the puppies she is breeding. I checked the site today and found she has a new litter of miniature Schnauzers. No one will ever take the place in my heart that Zoe holds but I have extra room for another fur baby and have decided to buy another puppy from the breeder. As luck would have it all of her girls are sold and that may be for the best. We will get a boy of a different color so we will not see Zoe when we look at him. Zack is doing much better but my husband and I are not. I really believe my husband needs another dog to care for now, not in a year.
I spoke with my vet tonight and she thought it was a good idea, keeping in mind that she is only supporting my needs. Family were not supportive when we got the puppies 3 years ago and most think we are crazy but I can't worry what they think. I have the charm bracelets that are so popular now with the removable charms-Pandora, Camilia, Troll. I went a bought a silver charm today to represent Zoe. I felt really good about it and knew it was something I could do today to bring some pleasure into a day of many tears.
I hope you can understand my need to start caring for a new little life and to give Zack another companion. He has been with another dog for his whole life except for the past 2 wks.
Joanne