Today's The First Day I Haven't Cried, Since my pet dog Bruno died I regularly cried from 5 to 14 January Options

[fcbruno]

Hi Guys

I can't remember the last time I really cried...probably when my mum died back in 2000. My dog Bruno got ill last November 25 2010 and my dad and I tried everything possible to get him better. We saw lots of vets and made Bruno as comfortable as possible.

I must admit that while Bruno was ill it caused me to sink into a deep depression which obliterated any happiness over the Christmas and New Year period.

I now feel the 'black cloud' I've been suffering is at last drifting way from my mind. Today's the first day I haven't full-on cried (I certainly have had tears in my eyes on several occasions when I get a happy flashback of Bruno) so I'm hoping that my no longer crying is a sign that I will now be able to bounce back from my sadness and get on with my life again?

I made this video tribute for Bruno if you would like to see it. From approx 3 mins in there is some nice HD footage I took of Bruno and my dad on a beach one Christmas Day a few years ago.

Take care

Peter

[moon_beam]

Hi, Peter, just stopping by to say "hello." I was reading your post to Joanne with the imagery of how bleak our sorrow makes us feel like the winter weather. I call this grief journey "the winter of the heart" - - the emptiness, barrenness, lifelessness from the deep sorrow of not having the physical presence of our beloved companions with us. Like the other wonderful people in this forum I am blessed by your video of your precious Bruno. Seeing the happiness he brought to your dad brought back many memories of how my Samson - - my very first dog and a gift to me from my mom - - brought joy into my mom's life in addition to mine. What a blessing that was to share with her, as I know you are feeling blessed to have shared Bruno's earthly journey with your dad.

Peter, as you begin to feel a "re-birth" in your heart as you watch the birds and other precious critters in your garden look forward to the warmth of spring, may your and your dad's heart also feel the warmth of your precious Bruno's sweet Living Spirit in your hearts and memories to cheer you as you continue your earthly journey.

Please know you and your dad are in my thoughts and prayers, Peter, and that I look forward to knowing how you and your dad are doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[fcbruno]

Hi, Peter, just stopping by to say "hello." I was reading your post to Joanne with the imagery of how bleak our sorrow makes us feel like the winter weather. I call this grief journey "the winter of the heart" - - the emptiness, barrenness, lifelessness from the deep sorrow of not having the physical presence of our beloved companions with us. Like the other wonderful people in this forum I am blessed by your video of your precious Bruno. Seeing the happiness he brought to your dad brought back many memories of how my Samson - - my very first dog and a gift to me from my mom - - brought joy into my mom's life in addition to mine. What a blessing that was to share with her, as I know you are feeling blessed to have shared Bruno's earthly journey with your dad.

Peter, as you begin to feel a "re-birth" in your heart as you watch the birds and other precious critters in your garden look forward to the warmth of spring, may your and your dad's heart also feel the warmth of your precious Bruno's sweet Living Spirit in your hearts and memories to cheer you as you continue your earthly journey.

Please know you and your dad are in my thoughts and prayers, Peter, and that I look forward to knowing how you and your dad are doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi moon_beam

Yeah the way you have described our grief journey as the winter of the heart is a really good description of what we're going through. Aww I'm glad Bruno's video brought back happy memories of your happy times with Samson and your mom. These happy memories bring smiles back to our faces when we least expect. I hope you're keeping okay. Are you having a relaxing weekend?

Last night I had lots of nightmares of Bruno's last moments which replayed in my mind and made me quite distressed. Am feeling a little chirpier today however. Am purposely trying to focus on looking at other dogs, cats, birds and squirrels and feeling blessed that I have the privilege to be alive on earth at this moment in time with their little lives. I even smiled at a tiny little spider which abseiled from my ceiling yesterday and landed on my fingertip!

Blessings, and take care

Peter