Today's The First Day I Haven't Cried, Since my pet dog Bruno died I regularly cried from 5 to 14 January Options

[fcbruno]

Hi Guys

I can't remember the last time I really cried...probably when my mum died back in 2000. My dog Bruno got ill last November 25 2010 and my dad and I tried everything possible to get him better. We saw lots of vets and made Bruno as comfortable as possible.

I must admit that while Bruno was ill it caused me to sink into a deep depression which obliterated any happiness over the Christmas and New Year period.

I now feel the 'black cloud' I've been suffering is at last drifting way from my mind. Today's the first day I haven't full-on cried (I certainly have had tears in my eyes on several occasions when I get a happy flashback of Bruno) so I'm hoping that my no longer crying is a sign that I will now be able to bounce back from my sadness and get on with my life again?

I made this video tribute for Bruno if you would like to see it. From approx 3 mins in there is some nice HD footage I took of Bruno and my dad on a beach one Christmas Day a few years ago.

Take care

Peter

[fcbruno]

Hi Cryss your blog is a lovely tribute to Sassy. The photo of her on the bike is wonderful. A gorgeous personality.
Bruno was 16 fast approaching 17 when we lost him. Yep he certainly was a distinguished gent with his white muzzle! Thanks so much for your supportive words they mean a lot to me and my dad.

moon_beam thanks again for your kind, comforting, words. I have been showing my dad your posts and he really appreciates them as much as I do. Thank you.

Yesterday I played the Bruno video on DVD in the livingroom (where his 'box' is kept) and cried for ages. By the time I finished crying I was exhausted and fell straight to sleep in an armchair for three hours. I feel a little better today and will try to be as active as possible.

[Sassy]

Yesterday I played the Bruno video on DVD in the livingroom (where his 'box' is kept) and cried for ages. By the time I finished crying I was exhausted and fell straight to sleep in an armchair for three hours. I feel a little better today and will try to be as active as possible.

I'm a bit late in responding, thanks for the earlier nice words about Sassy. I like to think that through the blog as many people as possible get to know how special she was.

About you watching the DVD, I think we all do what we need to do. I have been talking to someone professionally about my grief and I have compared myself sometimes to a close friend who not long ago lost her dog after having him 14 years. She put everything away and basically cleared the house of his presence. I however am the opposite and have looked at photos and trinkets, her ashes, her fur, I cry a lot, I miss her a lot. He says each person experiences grief in different way. He said a professor that he studied under said that the grief felt at the loss of a friend was directly reflective of the love that we had for them. SO based on your extreme grief I would say that your love for Bruno knew no bounds.

I often think about the saying “better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all” the jury is still out on that one …. Also I thought if I wasn’t mourning her loss that I was forgetting her and doing her passing an injustice by “getting better’ but I realized that I am starting to live with this hole in my soul and that a life tinged with a little sadness will now become my norm.

Have you experienced this kind of loss before? I haven’t so for me this is a wakeup call, I can expect more sadness in my life, so that now plays on my mind too, losing my best friend has opened up many other feelings that I hadn’t acknowledged before.

Hope you are doing ok and doing what you need to do to stay safe and secure.

Take care of yourself