Sudden Death Of My Little Girl Options

[JoanneL]

I am very new here as I just registered last night. I wrote a new topic post but now I can't find it on the site so I am trying again. My husband took our 2 little Schnoodles out for their morning walk on Monday and a few minutes later I got his frantic call. Our little girl had gotten off her leash, run into the street and was hit and killed by a car. We took her to the ER even though we knew she was gone. I can't remember ever being so hysterical in my life. I have cried and wailed for the last 4 days.
I am so glad I found this site last night and that all of you are out there. It is so lonely trying to go through this pain. My husband and I are not really able to talk much about it yet. I know he is replaying the scene in his head and always will. We have our little boy, her brother, and he is trying to figure out why everything has changed.
Friends have said we should think to the future about getting another dog but right now all I can think about is my Zoe and the fact that I will never hold her again or get those sweet kisses from her when I get home from work at night.

[moon_beam]

Hi, Joanne. Bringing home the ashes of our beloved companions can be very comforting, but it is also another confirmation that they are not physically with us the way our hearts long and ache for them to be.

I know what it's like to need to just release all the emotions that have been pinned up during the day at work, and it's not like we have any control right now when we just need to let them out. I remember thinking I needed wiper blades for my eyes while I was driving.

Joanne, thank you so much for sharing with us how things are going for you. I hope today has been a peaceful one for you, and that your travels will be safe and uneventful. Please know you are in my thougths and prayers, Joanne, and will look forward to knowing you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[fcbruno]

Hi Joanne

Has the weather improved for you at all? There's something mind-numbing, I found recently, about being so upset and visually seeing all this snow and ice around us. December was horrendous in Northern Ireland with our worst snow for decades, and Bruno was ill throughout. What I would say about this is that it might be advantageous to our grieving...because once the snow and ice thaws and disappears you get the sense that you are moving on and no longer stuck in that freezing sad place. I'm rambling, but I think this is how the heavy snow we had in Northern Ireland has affected me. Now when I look in the garden I see little birds and sunshine rays through the branches. When the snow was here I felt tremendous gloom and misery and frustration. Anyway, I hope that when the weather improves where you are it might help lessen your burden a little.

Thinking of you. Take it as easy as you can.

Peter