My Precious Baby Girl Options

[rainbohdi]

I am new here and not sure if is ok for me to be posting this so soon, but I guess someone will tell me if it's not.

I also don't know if it's ok to say what happened to her because it was so very awful and people might find it too hard to read, perhaps someone could tell me about that too.

I have supportive friends and they are all devastated that she is gone, even moreso because of how she went.

I couldn't have human babies so she was my one and only baby girl and my most precious love. She was 15 but still so agile and full of life and she neither acted nor looked her age. She loved me, her other people and life so very deeply. She made people smile every day, from her extended family to total strangers out on her walks. Even people who'd say they weren't dog people seemed to make an exception for her.

I know I have to go on, but it has been me and her for so long now that I don't know how to be just me. Every second of each day I have to fight the urge to curl up in a corner and die. I just miss her so badly it feels like every cell in my body is distressed, there is an ache and an emptiness I think will be there forever.

I couldn't save my sweet little girl, she trusted me to keep her safe and cared for and I just couldn't keep her safe this one time she needed it more than ever.

I hope everyone else suffering the pain of the loss of their babies is as ok as anyone can be at a time like this.

rb

[moon_beam]

Hi, Rainbohdi, for different reasons I do so understand the intense trauma you are feeling, including not being able to sleep because of the horrific memory that invades your mind. I truly am so very sorry for this horrific experience for you, - - for this horribly tragic event for your precious Bohdi.

I know one of the questions you must be asking is "why" - - and rightfully so, and I wish I could give you an answer. "Why" is comprised of - - why was the attacking dog running loose to begin with. "Why" is comprised of did the attacking dog have a history of this behavior. "Why" is comprised of did the attacking dog have legal owners, and if so, were they aware they had a dog with a capability for being vicious. "Why" is comprised of were the local animal control officers aware of this dog's capability of being vicious, running loose, and if so, were they trying to do something about it. "Why" is comprised of - - in spite of all of this, why did your precious Bohdi have to suffer this horrific attack at all.

Answers can help, eventually, and I hope and pray with all my heart that you are able to receive answers that will help bring some comfort to your heart, and bring some justice for your precious Bohdi.

Rainbodhi, please do not hesitate to talk to your doctor if you find that you need some medicinal assistance in getting sleep. What you are experiencing is part of post-traumatic stress. It is not a sign of weakness to talk to your doctor about this, - - what you are experiencing is real. Right now trying to focus your thoughts to pleasant memories may not be enough. Your physical body, including your mind, need to get rest for this grief journey is very stressful and takes a lot of energy to endure. You can't maintain a good balance of energy if you can't sleep. And clinical studies prove there are serious physical side effects to sleep deprivation.

Rainbohdi, please know you are in my thoughts and prayers every day, and please do let us know how things are going for you.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam