We Lost Our Beautiful Buffy Cat Options

[Tricia]

Our beautiful Buffy was just killed by a car on Sunday night. We had four cats (including Buffy), her brother Oscar, her mother Matasha and our old cat Tassel. We brought them in late on Sunday night (1am) because I was working on a thesis. I had been working for three weeks straight so i couldn't spend much time with our cats. I said to them, I'm sorry but just give me a couple of weeks and this will be done.
She didn't come home Sunday night and the next day we looked around for her, asked our neighbours. On Tuesday, our neighbour said a friend saw a black long haired cat beside the road behind our house (we never drive that way and didn't think). The boys were in school and so my husband went to check and it was her. I don't think my heart could be more broken, my eyes won't stop crying.
I helped her mother give birth to her, I held and her brother from the first breath they took, I watched them grow and I couldn't let them go to new homes so I kept them. I named her Buffy because she was fearless, she had a strong spirit and she gave love like there was no tomorrow. She would always come to me and talk when I talked to her. She never ignored me (as some cats do), like she always had time for me. She would nibble our fingers when we didn't pet her and if they were out of reach, she would nibble our toes. If we were sitting, she would get right up and head butt our heads, like hey give me some loving (if all else failed our ears were prime targets too).
I can't describe how much this hurts, cause I saw her when my husband brought her home and I can't equate her poor battered body with how vibrant she was just a few days ago.
My middle son is just devasted, Buffy was sort of his cat too. He has been crying alot too.
I just want this not to hurt so much. I don't know if she suffered, I pray she wasn't laying there alone in pain. I miss her so much.
Thankyou for letting me post this, I think it helps to know other people will understand. Just because they don't talk or they are not as smart as we are, doesn't mean they don't feel and need us. They deserve just as much love as we can give them. Thankyou.

[Saki & Freyj...]

That was a nice idea -- burying her with the pictures. I put things in Freyja's grave.... no pictures though.

I think animals affect us differently -- just like people do. For me, it was Saki-- she was my soul mate. I miss Freyja, too. It's just not the same. Saki was my teddy bear, my snuggler. I would talk to her all day long. And she'd talk back. It's hard to explain...

But its ok... don't feel badly that you are taking Buffy's passing harder than Snuff's. Try to just feel grateful that you were blessed with such a special friend.

Love,
Jennifer