Fractured By Dispair, Losing my Squiggy Options

[LostInDespair]

Hello all. I found you over the weekend as I need help from friends in this difficult time. On Friday, my wonderful Peke, Squiggy, was put to sleep. I cannot put my devastation into words. My little guy was only 8. He has a mitral valve leak for 2 years, and other med problems most certainly caused by the mill he came from. Squig was sick from day 1. I am so blessed to have loved and have been loved by him- no one would have loved him as I did. His loss is so profound. No one too kiss me, greet me, or play with me. He was always within arms reach. I look down and he's not there.
I knew it was time, he couldn't breathe or walk. I carried him around the house for 2 days, yet I regret my decision and I miss him; I want him back.
My family doesn't understand; my husband hasn't said a word to me, my kids were not attached. They were told to keep away from him so they have no feeling of loss.
I feel so alone. He loved me like no other. This pain is so unbearable. Thank you in advance for the shoulder to lean on, I can't see how to be without him.

[LostInDespair]

Thanks Aaron. It's nice to not be alone. Outside of here, only two friends mourn with me. My husband never understood nor does now.
Night is worst for me, I just try to get through.
Ugh.

[Aaron]

Thanks Aaron. It's nice to not be alone. Outside of here, only two friends mourn with me. My husband never understood nor does now.
Night is worst for me, I just try to get through.
Ugh.

I know it must be tough, but always remember that you have your friends here to support you. I am sorry your husband is not being more supportive, I couldn't imagine not being there for my wife or vice versa through this difficult time. I am reading a book on coping with the loss of a pet, so we'll see how that goes. We just have to seek out support in any way we can.

Mornings and nights are about the same for me. We are slowly adjusting to Reggie not being with us physically. It's tough though. We go through the daily motions just to pass the time and I am grateful when I get busy at work as it takes my mind off Reggie. The bus rides into work are the worst, as it's just 45 minutes of sitting there with not much to do. I try to pass time by reading emails or the internet on my phone.

Please let us know how you are doing, as we truly care about you and know how you feel. Hang in there, your Squiggy would want you to continue healing from his loss.