Bad Dreams About My Rose... Options

[MissMyRosie]

Hi everyone...

I lost my wonderful kitty of 17 years last Wednesday. Over the last few years we've made heroic efforts (thanks to my wonderful vet, Dr. Smith of Central Texas Cat Hospital) to retain her health through massive liver and kidney issues. Last Wednesday, it was her time. She crashed badly over the weekend, was yellow and could hardly walk. I will never forget my vet examining her, telling me "it's time"...I was with her at the end, telling her I loved her. I will never forget her little lifeless body laying there, never again to kiss me (she would shove her nose in my mouth for kisses), never again to bite my chin in love. It hurts so much. I cry every day. She was the love of my life, been with me through many cross country moves, failed relationships, she was my rock.

I picked up her remains two days ago; I had her cremated. That night, I had a dream in which she appeared healthy and whole and happy. Sadly in my dream I didn't realize she had died and it was just like usual: I picked her up and put her down in my dream. I fully believe she appeared to me because her remains were now home with me.

Then last night I had horrible dreams about her. She was skinny and sick and had an accident in which her paw was severed just below the wrist. Her little hand was laying there next to her body. It was horrible.

I know they visit us in our dreams and I am hoping that the dreams of last night were coming from my brain, not from her. It was horrible.

Anyone else dream, good or bad, about your lost furbabies? Any words of wisdom?

[sad]

I'm so sorry to hear about your kitty. I had mine for 15 years and after he was gone had several bad dreams about him. In them he was skinny and sick or skinny and hungry and crying. They were very upsetting so I know what you are going through. Then I finally had a good dream where he looked good and happy and healthy but I kept thinking-now I have to put you to sleep again so even that was not a really happy dream. I guess your brain just takes a while to process the loss-I really don't know. It is wonderful that you are thinking of giving another lucky kitty a wonderful home. I am not sure that I will ever be ready for that and it has been over a year for me. I hope you feel better soon.