2 Weeks, too many Options

[susanka1113]

It's been 2 weeks (plus one day) since I had to say goodbye to my Kona dog. I posted a memorial, hoping that it would help ease the pain today, but it hasn't. I'm afraid to say that I feel almost as bad as the day I had her euthanized. I don't know what to do. Nothing seems to ease the pain. I was hoping that a little time would help. I know that 2 weeks isn't that long, but it seems like an eternity to feel this bad. I miss her so much. I didn't realize that my whole routine revolved around her and her happiness. Now that she's gone I'm lost.

I have a reputation at work for being the clown and making people laugh. Nobody knows how to interact with me now that I can't be happy or funny. I wish I could be, but right now I don't feel like I'll ever be that person again.

Well meaning people have offered me other dogs, but I just can't bear the thought. I don't feel like I can ever risk loving again like I loved Kona. It hurts too much to have it taken away.

Don't know what else to say, just had to rant.

Susan

[SJ J & S]

Hi Susan
You are so right that it is early days, it may as well have only been yesterday.

Your friends if they are friends will be patient and wait for you, you will slowley but surely come around to your old self just not for a while yet.

Take each minute as it comes you are only at the begining of the roller coaster ride.

Be kind to yourself, when you can wrap yourself up in a blanket and feel sorry for yourself, you deserve time.

Rant as much as you like some of us still are ranting and the rest of us understand only too well what you are going through.

God Bless you
Love Sue