I Put My Best Friend To Rest Yesterday Options

[SharonL]

A picture of my Pal Ebony

Hi ,

I am so happy to have found this forum! Yesterday (12-6-04) we had to put our dear sweet ##er spaniel Ebony to sleep. Ebony was a 12 year old female black ##er spaniel. We found Eb in a garbage can behind a 7-Eleven 11 years ago. Ebony had bladder and kidney cancer and in the last month her tumor grew and grew like nothing I have ever seen in my 33 years. Sunday night was like any other night she was happy go lucky a little tired she had taken to sleeping much more than usual. At about 10 PM she fell and cried out in pain, I carried her to her bed and new something had changed, and the time had arrived, you see I promised Eb when she got sick, as soon as I knew she was in pain and couldn't bear the pain, I would taker the pain away and make it mine. I would make the toughtest decision of my life and put her down. That night I slept on the floor with my best friend and my husband would come and lay with us too. My 3 year old was fast asleep. My husband and I both knew if we were to stay true to the promise I made her, this would be our last night with our beloved pal. My poor sweet girl couldn't stand and couldn't get to the bathroom, she had a sad look in her eyes, and I believe she knew that her time had come. I believe that her mind, heart and spirit did not fail her just a cancer stricken body that couldn't keep up with her. At noon on Monday mornning I took my friend on our last road trip to the vet and had her pain ended.

My only problem is that I can't stop crying, I keep looking for her in all her usual spots, I keep hearing her. My daughter is crying occasionally my other ##er Daisy is looking for her. I am so sad, sad to the core of my being, angry because I feel like I needed more time with her, more time to love her, more time to pet her soft coat, more time. I MISS MY FRIEND! Whenever I would cry my baby would jump up on my lap and lick the tears off my face and wag her tail til I smiled, and now I don't have her to dry this imense puddle of tears. Thank you all for listening to me.

Hugs Sharon

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[Kathleen032]

Dear Sharon,

Your post brought tears to my eyes. I lost Shiloh 3 months ago to cancer. My last night with her was spent very much like your last night with Ebony. That night I knew it was time...Shiloh let me know, I will always be grateful to her for making the decision for me. She lived life to the fullest up until two days before she died. It sounds like Ebony and Shiloh were very much alike.

I can tell you from my own experience, you'll have good days and bad days. I remember after Shiloh passed I felt a sense of relief because I knew she wasn't suffering anymore. But that sense of relief was short lived and I found myself missing everything about her. As time passes you won't cry everyday all day long, but you'll still have moments when you'll think of Ebony and the tears will just pour like rain. The important thing to remember is that Ebony will always be a part of you. I find comfort in knowing that Shiloh and I will be reunited one day at the rainbow bridge, but until then I carry her spirit with me always in my heart.

Sharon, my thoughts and prayers are with you.
Kathleen