I Miss My Little Boy Options

[My heart Cooper]

This past week has been so awful. I sit and cry every night. I cry on the way home from work, while I'm here at home, and then at night before bed. I thought I was doing better but I just feel so awful. I miss my baby so much. I've gotten used to him not being here. I don't expect to see him anymore. But I still miss everything about him. I can't stand to look at pictures. I feel like I've taken a huge step backwards. I'm back to not being able to concentrate at work and just feeling sad all the time. I still just can't believe this has happened. And I feel like I can't let people know I still feel this bad because they expect me to have moved on by now. I don't even tell my husband how sad I am anymore. There's so much going on in my life right now and most of it is not so good. Normally, Cooper would be my rock. He brought my a sense of peace no matter what and now that is gone. I don't know how to work through these things without him.

Coopie - Mommy loves you so much. More than anything. I miss you every second of every day. You are my heart and I will never be whole without you. I pray that you are ok, wherever you are and you are not sad or lonely or afraid. I did my best to make sure you never had to feel those feelings. I pray that you don't now. I am so sorry you were alone when you passed. I would've never left you if I thought that would happen. I hope you were not afraid. Please be ok. I love you.

[My heart Cooper]

Yesterday evening was rough. I went to write something in my calendar at work and flipped to Sept. Right there on Sept. 9 was "Cooper's 6th Bday" surrounded by stars. I forgot I'd written that. I used to be sad that he would be 6. I never wanted him to get old. I wanted him to be my baby forever. But it breaks my heart to think he will now never be 6. He had so many good years ahead of him. I miss you little buddy.

[wchamilton]

Yesterday evening was rough. I went to write something in my calendar at work and flipped to Sept. Right there on Sept. 9 was "Cooper's 6th Bday" surrounded by stars. I forgot I'd written that. I used to be sad that he would be 6. I never wanted him to get old. I wanted him to be my baby forever. But it breaks my heart to think he will now never be 6. He had so many good years ahead of him. I miss you little buddy.

That was exactly what I thought when Winston died... he wasn't even 4 yet when he got hit by the car and to know that he had so many years ahead of him was just heartbreaking. We honestly thought our son would come home with his grandkids and Winston would get to meet them.

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time... my thoughts are with you, and please let us know how you're doing on your journey.