I Am So Ashamed, For scolding my Snookie Options

[Ann H]

I do not know what is wrong with me these past couple of weeks. I took Snookie with me in the car just like I almost always do and for the 1st time in her almost 11 years she went pee pee in my car seat.

I had only been in the store for around 15 minutes. When I came out and sit in it I raised my voice to her and said Snookie Lynn how could you do such a thing in my car and in my seat no less.

She hung her head and did not look at me the rest of the way home and I felt so ashamed for chewing her out. I know Snookie has to go to the bathroom a lot more in the past couple of weeks and I know she can't help it.

It seems she wants out every half hour or so and we have had some pretty cold wind chills and I have been unhappy having to go out with her so often. Snookie gets up at all hours of the night she barks and wakes me out of a sound sleep.

I fear the end might be closer than I want to realize. So why I am getting upset with her when nothing she has ever done has upset me? I feel like such a creep these days, my husband says it's the stress of losing Chili Bean so suddenly and the scare over Amber and the worry over Snookie.

Maybe so but it seems I would never get mad and raise my voice to my darling baby girl knowing that she could die anytime. I am wondering what has happened to me lately I am always so calm and tender towards animals and humans alike. I do not like myself very much these last couple of weeks.

The worst came when she got in bed with me when I was half asleep and I pushed her away and asked if she had been in the cat box as her breath stunk so bad. I told her pew how could you have done that you never do that rotten deed.

Later when I got up I saw she had threw up and had it all over the front of her. My God she needed comfort and I pushed her away.

I have never been more ashamed of myself in all my life. I can't understand what in the world is wrong with me and I am ashamed to tell you all about it but I feel so guilty I couldn't keep it in any longer.
Ann

[Pamela]

what a good anology, yes, it was like hitting a brick wall.